closing the year book,

"When all you gotta keep it strong, move along like I know you do"
theme song of my year 2008: Move Along

2008 flashback:

Family

This year, we received a new member of the family and we also lost one. We lost the ones that is the apple of everyones eye and the sweet to our heart. We lost Nini, my niece that was diagnosed with leukimia.And she was my favorite niece of all the nieces in the world! But when someone just got to go. They got to go. But than, I received a new apple of my eye and the sweet to my heart. I am not replacing Nini, but this is a whole new category to the apple of my eye and the sweet to my heart. Its my new nephew Ezekiel who was born on the 30th of august 2008 one day after Nini's birthday. miracle right? I know,

Friends

My friends was always there when I need them. When I'm about to have my PMR--Atiq, Faqiha and Fatin Diyanah was there for me. They thought me a whole lot of things and congratulations to Faqiha and Fatin because they achieve straight As for their PMR! I'm proud of them! When it comes to my crushes stories and love life, Saffy was always there listening to my whining about my crush and I was also listening to her love life story. But now, she has moved to Ipoh. And I wonder who else would want to hear all my crush stories. Najlaa, Nabilah, Raidah, Nana, Farr and yet again Atiq was also always there when I wanted a lot of fun! They made my day less fucked up. Sometimes they made my day fucked up FREE! And when it comes to hanging out and chilling out, Anne would be the one who I wanna hang out with 24/7 because she's unique and fun and most of all GENEROUS. Last but not least, the one that I can't live without and the one I loved the most, the girl who was always there for me and I am always there for her is Siti Amirah. She is my fucking bestest friend in this whole fucked up world ever! I fucking love her! Well, I love all of my friends actually. They're so sweet when it comes to being there. 2008 would be a mess without them..

Education

This was a fun year. Yet at the end, it ended up pretty fucked up. This year was all about PMR for my friends. Late night studies, tution, extra homework and tension around the air thinking about our future and the stream class that we were suppose to choose. But as for me, this year was all about PMR too and I did my homework, course work and tensions is around the air for me too but to me, I think that I procrastinate alot and to the effort that I made studying, somehow or rather I think that I could get better results but then maybe Allah see my efforts and he thinks that 2A is destined for me than I think I am willing to accept it right now, I'm getting stronger and much more consistent than ever. I HAVE GOALS!

Nick Raja Adam, 15 years old, PMR graduate and he is closing the 2008 year book of his life.

I am Nick Raja Adam, and all I have officially closed my 2008 year book with tears and a little bit of joy. My memories with this book is whole roller coaster ride. Although at the end of my story ended up a little fucked up but hey, thats life right? Anyway, happy new year and lets make 2009 a whole lot better than 2008. ilysm!

until then,

bisikan,

Bisikku pada bulan,
kembalikan temanku, kekasihku,syurgaku.
Tanpa dia, malam menemaniku,
sepi memelukku.
Bulan,
Jangan biar siang, biar alam ini gelap,
biar ia sepi.
Sepi sepertiku..

my life just flash before my eyes,

today was the results. I wake up at 9.30 in the morning and my heart is pounding like its gonna come out from my body. I imagine myself having at least 4As in my PMR results slip. How I would be happy and satisfied. But that was only my imagination, :(
My mum pick me up and she waited in the car as I go to the hall and take my results. At that time, the headmistress was calling out the names of the pupil who get 8As. I see my friends jumping up and down and tears of joy on their cheeks. How fun to be them, hmph..

Obviously I did not get called. So, I went and pick my results and it is a SHOCK of my life! The whole 1 second of my life felt so long when I look at my results.. This is not what expected, this is not what I tend to get. It is such a disappointment because I only get 2As and 6Bs! My As was for english and Agama.

I tried to hold on my tears in the hall, and then I run away and go to the car showed my mum the results. I am so glad that she was pleased. She said that my results was good according to the effort that I had make. She was so afraid that I get a C or D for my history.. But I was still in sadness. I went home and breakdown until I have no tears left to cry.. I am so proud of Atiq because he had gotten 4As for his PMR! congrats atiq!

Anyway, my sister said that my results is better than the rest of the sibling (yeah whatever) everyone just want to make me feel happy.. Its not gonna work! My aunt gave me a hundred bucks for those 2As, I am still thinking "do I deserve those hundred bucks?" What I deserve is a real SLAP on my face! I feel so stupid! I did not expected this to happen.

SPM, here I come!

separated,

What ever happen to LOVE? Why get married when your going to get a divorce 10 years down the road? How selfish can some parents be letting their child think its their fault when its not? My friend N, said to me that her parents are getting a divorced. She was crying, and I do not know what to do because I have never been in her shoes before. All I can say is that I am always there for her if she needs me and that her parents still loves her only they do not love each other anymore(well I did the best I could). Anyway, I think that her parents are selfish! They only think about their happiness and not their child's. Getting a divorce is pointless and stupid, they can work things out. Talking or going to a marriage counselor would get their marriage back on track. But if those stuff does not work, they might wanna PRETEND that they are happy together in front of their child or whatsoever, you might think that I may not understand. But look at yourself bitch! even you do not understand yourself!

until then,

less than 24 hours left,

How's your situation right now PMR candidates? Tensions is in the air for me, I'm losing my confidence and I am having doubts. Will I get at least 4As? or will I get less? I'm biting every single part of nails, my heart feels like its going to pop-ed out from my body, I feel goose bumps around my neck. I never felt like this before. I swear! This is critical! This is much more worst than getting my UPSR results. My stomach feels like there is a millions of butterflies flying on it. I hope that I will get 8A's :,( please oh dear god!

you know you love me,

until then,

less than 24 hours left,

The day that all the form 3's around Malaysia has been waiting for(well, besides PMR). Yes, its the results! Some of you right now might be praying hard to get straight A's, some of you might be biting your nails and some of you might not be sleeping all night for the past few days because you're thinking about the results. Well, we know that there is nothing that we can do to change the results right now, you only have to think about the effort you made through out the whole journey. Did you study hard? work smart? or you party hard? Well I am a little bit of partying hard and half of the work smart part and a last minute FULL of study hard! So, what will I get? How many A's will I earn? What about you? Well, for me I personally think that I get at least 4 A's. But who knows? It's only my guessing. Anyway, good luck people. Your not the only one who is freaking out right now.

lots of love,

until then.. :)

Ipoh second day,

today we planned to watch HISTERIA at Jusco Kinta City. The morning was awesome! I never knew I could wake up at 5am in the morning.. I went for my Subuh prayers and went back to bed.. But I only slept for 3 hours and woke up at 8am. The hallway in front of my room makes the house much more perfect because the hallway has a BIG window and a vintage themed balcony which I am in LOVE with. And when the sun rise in the morning at the hallway window, I suddenly feel like having tea. So, I went down the stairs and go through the dining hall which was connected to the kitchen and have 2 toast and a cup of tea.

After all the relaxing that I had in the morning, I bathed and shampoo-ed my hair and get dress to go and watch HISTERIA. I was wearing my pink hearts polka dots white shirt and a green short pants and I put my cardigan on and just buttoned one button at a middle. For my accesories, I wear my big square 60s sunglasses and a BAMBI necklace around my neck. And so I guess I looked perfect for movies right?

Arriving at Kinta City, we went straight to the food court because Saf's NEEDED to buy some donuts. We shared some donuts and I ate a set of Unagi don which was delicious and Atiq had some yong tau foo that he shared with Saf..

After lunch, we went straight to the movies and watch Histeria.. The movie was not too bad, it's something different than the other malay horror/thriller flick because the story line was ok. But the ghost was NOT! The ghost was not SCARY at all!! But so and so, the movie was not that bad.. I would give it 4/10 through out the whole movie. :)

We went back home to wait for Nabilah to arrived..

After nabilah had arrived, Saf's parents ask us to get ready because they want to take us for dinner and bring us to the flea market! The food was delicious!! Kueay tiow goreng had never tasted so good! Flea market was ok, a lil bit happening compared to some places in Ipoh..

anyway, I hve to sleep now. Gotta go to Pulau Pangkor at 7am! update with ya on christmas eve!!!

until then,

2 guys and a girl,

Sleepover at Saffy's house was awesome! Since her room was soo huge(it was the size of my living room)! Like, who would have thought Saffy who lived at a terrace house in TTDI where it was always flooded when it rains and even Saffy have to swim around the house. But now, she lived in a HUGE bungalow inhabitat by expensive antique furnitures and a little touch of a modern spice. The house looks so vintage and I loike it like a LOT! Her room is teenage vintage themed and it lookeed soo awesome! But unfortunately, Atiq and I had to sleep at the guest room. But that was okay because her guest room was twice as big as her room itself! Can you believe that lucky bitch's house? Anyway, later I'm going to watch Histeria at this place call Kinta City.. Since tomorrow morning we're going to Pulau Pangkor, I need to packed some fantastic costumes for me to party there!

untill then,

model wannabee

ipoh first day

We have planned this trip since before our PMR, visiting Saffy and going to Pangkor island with my friends would be the best holiday ever! As I arrived at Saf's house. I was SHOCK because her house is like an italian villa. The best part is, her house looks soo vintage.. And I love vintage.. Like yeah!

Today i tried the famous mee rebus Ipoh, its quite delicious but I prefer mee rebus Johor better.. Don't you think so? Anyway, tomorrow we will be going to watch histeria and we planned to go shopping at their flea market.. Hope I could find something cheap and nice!

And I can't wait to go to Pulau Pangkor!!

until then,

PMR candidates is it?

results is on the 27th of december 2008 and its confirmed! You gotta pray hard baby,

Fun's almost over

two reasons why the fun is almost over

1.My mom is arriving 3.00am tomorrow morning. As much as I want her home, but I feel like the fun will be over soon. Mom is coming home, so there will be no more late night parties and there will be curfew and most of all there will be no more access to her ATM.. :(

2.Results are coming after Christmas! I am freaking scared waiting for the results! Will I get 8As? or will I not? these questions keeps running through my head since the start of the year. But now its getting nearer soo it means that school is starting over.. Form 4 will be a good year for me. No more screwing up.

But I will have a LOT of effin fun this Sunday until Christmas because I will be on a holiday with Atiq, Saf and Nabilah. We will go to Ipoh on the 21st visiting Saf's new crib. I heard its a bungalow.. WOW! Plus, she has drivers! yeah!! And on the 22nd, we will be going on a road trip at Ipoh.. Visiting flea markets, antiques shop and some vintage boutique that I check on the internet..And it keeps getting better because, on the 23rd until the 24th, my armies and I will be going to Pulau Pangkor!!!!!!!!!! woot woot!! Tanning on the sand, snorkeling under the deep blue sea, partying at the resorts lounge and sipping one of our favorite cocktails wearing fabulous clothes and stuffs! yeah! that will be a hell lot of a fun before school starts!!

until then,

p/s I know you wanna be me right now..

nothing feels right!

"I tried to drive manual, But I failed"

yeah, today is the day where i stay at home being lazy and stuffs, well you know those days ! And now, I'm like on track with it again.. hmph, I can't wait for more holidays!! Ipoh and Pangkor would be fun! I am going there on the 21st until the 25th! But I am only spending 200 ringgit there. Including Food okayh!! Hish. Anyway, if you wanna know the story about me driving a manual car.. You could check it out at www.super-stereo.blogspot.com..

Today I meet siti amirah and her sister! GOD! they're HOT!! I miss them alot. I hugged them like a ton of times. Well, Siti did spill some beans and trash about her today.. But I will not tell you what it is.. Because its too unexpected. Well, maybe some of you expected it. But I did not! haha, hanging out with her and being psycho was soo fun! She was addicted to Edward Cullen. OMG! Which girl does not?!

Until then,

this relative of mine,

I love all my relatives, I really do. But sometimes, the relatives on my dad's side really annoys me.. Well, not ALL of them. My aunty Sah is really cool though, aunty Na and aunty Pah is also not bad. But there is this one aunty of mine. She's the youngest of them all, its Aunty Lo ! Well, its not that I don't love her.. I really do, but its just that she makes a big fuss about the things that I take I as a joke plus, the JOKE is not for her... I have facebook, she has facebook and she should be happy that I add her up. Because most of my cousins BLOCK her from adding them up. And this certainly shows that I am a good nephew.. But the thing that annoys me the most is that she would tell my mum about what ever happen in facebook. And to make things worst, my mum is in HAJJ now, and when she comes back that aunty of mine would surely tell whatever happen in my facebook. Because of the pictures where I hugged girls, with dirty captions and stuffs. -.-" But thank god I think that my mum won't mind because she knows me better than everyone do.. Anyways, yesterday I posted this survey on facebook and I named that survey "When I'm not tired and my friends are all asleep.. BITCH" and there are some other bad words there. But that survey is for my friends NOT for my aunties, well I bet my other aunties wouldn't mind it.. Its just HER! and then out of the blues, she commented on the survey "This is ur Aunty Lo.....Pls use appropriate language...BITCH is not good!!!I see u grow up...!!!!Pls be more tactful."
I really appreciate that she's looking out for me though, but PUH_LEZZ, your annoying. And for the record, she is 40 something years old and I am just 15 years old. Who the hell would read a 15 year old facebook? Except for my friends though. How should I know that she has no life and read my facebook and make a big FUSS about it..

P/S My aunty on my mum's side reads my BLOG lagi tau! And she don't go making a BIG hoo-haa about it.. She keep it cool though, and she makes joke about my blog lagi!! haha..

too drunken to remember :(

Turn the lights out
This shit is way too fucking bright
Wanna poke my eyes out
If you wanna mess with my eyesight
Just let me get my head right
Where the hell am I?
Who are you?
What'd we do ?
Last night?



Can't remember what I did last night
Maybe I shouldn't have given in
But I just couldn't fight
Hope I didn't but I think I might
Everything, everything is still a blur


What's your name,?

Can you calmly hand me all my things?
I think I need a coffee
Better yet, I need to get up outta here
I gotta get my head right
Where the hell am I?
Who are you?
What'd we do
Last night?

(fictional)

bila aku sudah tiada kerja

:)

words that comes out,

break my heart.

unusual you

nothing about you

why haven't you?

been so many things,

could exist

maybe your not even human

these are the words, that comes out outta my head, what does it say?

breath

Dancing in distress,

lets breath in slowly and think about what we did. About the past how time flies so fast, and how you don't wanna dream about how the things that never were. When you don't wanna feel the pain because you might think "what good will it do me now?" Even when we cross the line its like theres a lie that we told a thousand times.

I lied

Why do I keep coming back to you in my dreams and I told you that I'm the one who could have been. I've tried to put this crush in the past. the more that I try to move on, the more that I would miss you and missing you makes me stupid because I did not tell you how do I really feel about you and its been years.

JEALOUSY

Why do you have to interupt every shining moment? Why do you get mad when people compliment me much more than you? That is why I never be friends with guys because the get jealous often. Why do I intimidate you? watch me now, because I'll be someone new. I am sick of you taking me as your competition. I am not a competition! I am your friend! can't you see? People gives me attention more than they do to you because I am being myself and I use it to make people happy not to make you jealous. I have a million and a lot of better things to do than make you jealous. You could play this competition by yourself because I'm winning anyway. So, is that what makes you mad? Because I am the one who wins the most? Please,why are you wasting time competing when you have plenty of time to show your specialties? You've got what I got and I know that you got what I got. Now, let that thing be free inside of you. Stop competing against me. Because you know what? Friendship is not about competing its about supporting! In case you haven't notice. :)

this explains every chapter:

"I can't figure out. I made mistakes and regretted but why can't I move on yet? I'm here feeling lonely wearing a mask to make me happy I'm dancing in distress."

"I dream that you and I will be together until death do us part but why am I dreaming to the things that will never be? its like I'm lying to myself. I hate it when I lied."

"I have flaws but I hide it. I show my perfection to the world and they see it. My armies have jealousy issues because of me! So, should I show my flaws to the world and you could be happy?"

changes.

Here is some advice to my juniors who is just stepping in to the High School World. Or as I like to call it. The BATTLEFIELD.. Yes, it is a battlefield for you at first. But after 2 years of tragedy,drama's, puberty and regrets. You find that school is some place that you go early morning and listen to these human who always babbles in front of us which we call teachers and all the drama's from last years doesn't matter anymore. Because all you think about after that 2 years is about your studies. Or some of you just figured that you hate studies. You might spend the whole year cutting class and hanging around near apartments and malls(well some people doesn't grow up).
Friends? Which I call the armies will CHANGE after 2 years. The girl you see being the QUEEN BEE would be alone the next year. The guy you see who is pretty much you call UGLY would be one of your heartthrobs in school. The girl who you might think that she's too ugly. Just might turn into a beautiful swan the next. So, it changes. And what I notice is that, the 1st 2 years of high school with your best best best friends will definitely change. Because you know, at the 3rd year of high school. You, might lose some of your bestfriends. So take good care of them well, because you know you need them.. Even if its imaginary..

until then,

out from under

Let me get you off my mind. Wait, I can't!

broke (I'm a shopaholic)

Maybe my mum should only leave me for about 2oo for 44 days, but instead she gave 400 for 44 days ! yeah, and now I'm left with 45 ringgit. It's not as easy as it seems, I'm sure some of you may say "pegy la dekat kakak kau" or "ala, your sister kan dah kerja". FYI people, my sister's does not work for me. They work for themselves and for my family.. NOT FOR ME.. Not only that, but in case you haven;t notice, I have my social life to attend to. But you cannot get a DOLLAR drink at a party can you? You can't even get a RM5 movie for god sake ! Thank god I'm going to JB next week. I hope I could get enough money to last me until 17th december. This is sooooo irresponsible of me. I spent my money on clothes, movies, pizza, drinks and parties?! urgh!!!! I am such a son of a big fat BITCH! damn it!! please people, don't ask me out anymore.. I can't take this.. OH MY GOD! I need to buy the ticket for that spade party! shit! its 30 bucks.. But that spade party is on the 10th.. and I be back here from JB on the 8th.. I hope and I really really hope that I get DUIT RAYA HAJI from my relatives :( so, toodles!

until then,

when i get my 8A's,

I'm not being over confident. and yet I am not confident at all, and yet I still think that I can have 8As..wait! can i?

So here's the plan:

The day before the results, I will make it like an ordinary day. Maybe not. At that time my nails maybe has already been gone, my bones will feel very light and my feet will be stuck under the blanket. And I would be hoping that I'd get my 8A's.. So, by that time I will be lying down at my bed listening to the move along song while I shout under my pillow "why do I have to feel like this?!!" I hate feeling nervous actually, but.. You gotta face the music.. After shouting and realize that I can't sit still. I would be going on the computer and sign in for my myspace, facebook, blogspot and my IM's after that I would go to google.com and type "how to kill yourself". :) after a long day of the internet. I would call my friends and ask them how they feel.. Not that I care that much.. But I will.. And then, I will go to the kitchen and I will eat everything thats in it and hoping that life would be easy.. After eating, I would go to the toilet and puke myself out.. Because if I don't, I would be fat like them.. Which I will not be.. haha, and then I brush my teeth and go to bed..

In the morning, obviously my tears has already been dried out.. And then I go to the toilet, shit myself out, brush my teeth again and then I have a bath.. Obviously at that time my aunties will sms-ed me "dah amek results? berapa dapat?". So I guess, I should turned off my phone.. So, I would wear those funeral clothes. Black and sad.. And now, I'm heading to school..

We would sit at the hall, and I bet I would see some of my friends praying, some of them just don't care and some of them would cry.. While I sit there with my shades hoping that I will get that 8A's and obviously I would say to myself "kenapa la kau tak study? kenapa la kau malas?" And suddenly its time..

The principal would say "nama nama yang mendapat 8A saya ucapkan tahniah. Dan nama nama itu adalah,"

bla bla bla bla.. And suddenly Raja Mohammed Naqiuddin Shahmi Bin Raja Adam..

At that time, I feel like I could fly.. I wanna shout, I wanna scream, I wanna hugged those beside me.. But I won't.. I would just smile, stay calm, thanked allah soo much for the miracle and then take my results, go to the car.. Show my mum and my brother.. And then I'm sure they would be soo happy for mee.. duh! and then call my sister's and tell them everything. After that I would sms-ed my uncle/friends/aunties and cousin mumble about the happy news! And if my mum asked me what do I want for my 8As present.. I would say NOTHING.. 8As is already the best present ever.. and no one can beat that.. right?

p/s this story is just a BERANGAN thing that I do.. ahha.. But I know, it will come true :)

sunset.

when the sun sets. That is when my tears come out.

its not the same,but yet it remains the same

have you ever felt like things has change? Seasons have change and so have me. But sometimes as far as the surroundings have change, something does really stays the same:

1. A friend who has a brother that will never understands. And it has been going on since he was born.
   
2. A girl and her boyfriend who stayed in the same city kept a long distance relationship and now the girl has move to another state and it is now, a forever long distance relationship.
3. A guy who never confesses his feelings to his own best friend about how he really feels about her.
4. A girl who kept waiting for the perfect guy since the day she was born remains the same.But the perfect guy that she was looking for could be in front of her eyes only she's too busy searching and did not see.
   
5. A guy who has been waiting for so long to tell her that she loves her and just to find out she does not love him.And the girl is stuck between two guys.
   
6. A girl who has never forgotten about his boyfriend even though they have broken up for about a year now.

Yeah somehow, the ice never gets thinner even if we put fires on it. Those six stories remains the same since last year. Those six stories and each of them represents my friend, guess which stories belongs to who..

until then,

today,

I spend my times with c, today! Have a lot of things to share with her though just now, she stayed at my house from 4pm until 12 am! yeah,! we have so much to share. But so little time for me to confess. hmph,
Maybe next time right C?

I'm so deeply in LOVE

I'm in love, with you so badly! It's chronic!:

with everything i won't let you go!

I have been hearing to stressful songs through out the day!

I even shed a tear for her! WTH?! The last thing that I need right now is falling in love and cry over someone and that I am scared to tell her that I love her. It is a school holiday for crying out loud! Let's have some fun!! But, my smile is just a mask for me to wear in public. I do not know when will I have the courage to tell her the truth!

Sejak bila aku EMO sial?!

The last thing my friends would expect from me is seeing me cry and get emotional! Puh-lease! Nick don't do with FALLING IN LOVE shit! Well that's what I thought!! argh!! If only she could read minds! Imagine that right?

until then :(

canceled!

the movie night was canceled!

I bet its because Anne can't go..

stumble and fall.

I woke up at 1.00 pm this morning. Haiih, Holidays is fun and somehow. ITS TIRED! Parties, shopping malls, girls, movies and dramas! Yesterday, Najjy, Atiq and I went to curve and ikea. We went to Ikea because I was bugging them to have meatballs there. And so we did have meatballs there. hahah. It was Atiq's first try, and he was hypnotized by the delicious-ness of the meatballs! yummy right? haha, After that, we went to cineleisure and booked 3 tickets and watch madagascar 2. We booked the ticket at 3.oopm. And it was only 1.00pm then, so we went to the nearby arcade and played with the PHOTO BOOTH! haha, apparently it was Atiq's first time in the photo booth! Yeah, and I paid for the photo booth and it was 36 ringgit total! It was ok, since Najjy and Atiq was my bestfriend! Anything to make them happy!! haha, After that we walked around and window shop through out curve. And atiq was being an annoying virus, he was like "okok movie dah nak dekat start!! Jom ar!! Cepat! nanti tak sempat!!" and it was only 2.30 at that time -.-" doesn't he know that CINELEISURE is just in front of curve?! Plus, at that time we were in front of cineleisure and I just said "Atiq ni annoying lah!!!" and he got mad and said "sape annoying sekarang ni?!!" and I was like "you!" and he pushed me! hahah, yeah! the Army just pushed the General! ahah, I punch his back and he kept quiet! No one mess with me right Atiq? ahah! And he did not talk to me until we got home.. I did not mind but somehow I was irritated with him because he did not even say thank you about the stickers thing,he broke my mp3 1 week ago(that mp3 can't be used! anymore!). He hurt my feelings because when I wanted to borrow his phone, he said "alla sekejap je la.. I takut you damaged it!" And suddenly I'm the bad guy?! So yesterday, I bullied him ALOT! Until his face was red with anger! ahah! But wtev! He will come through it somehow!

And today, I sit at home doing nothing and planned to have a movie night with anne and friends! And anne asked atiq if he wants to come. Atiq said NO! Obviously, he did not want to go because I am going. -.-" Merajuk mcm perempuan sial!! ouh waiitt.. Atiq called!! brb,

ahahaha! He marah me because he said that I bully him alot and he has the right to merajuk -.-"
pfft! haaahahaha, and he called the 2nd time and talked to me this time like a saint man! Apparently, he can't go to Anne's house because it was at night! And I thought, since there were no one at my house.. Why don't we just have a movie night here?! smart right? I know!

why so blind?

I have been so deeply in love with you but somehow you were too blind to see that right? yeah, somehow you are! Why so dumb? I am lost of words to speak right now. I can't take this anymore! But, whenever I try to make my move.. Somethings happen, and when THINGS happen to you. It last forever, and I am the one who is suppose to wait. Not for an hour, but now I am in love with you for over a year. And you don't know that! Look, who am I kidding?! I may never be with you right? Who am I? I am just a friendship hug. And thats it! there is a full stop right there! I am just a friendship HUG! Nothing more. So, should I move on? or should I wait and be stupid? But if I move on, I would be flirting and being in love with the wrong person. And if I stay and wait, there is this part of me that says it might ruined our friendship. What now? please readers, you don't have to answer.. Because its not worth it.. I tried everything! But nothing will never ever gonna change.. Only if she knows that I love her because of what she is and not what she looks like.. I think that would change everything..But, it might ruined everything too.. So,I am totally stuck on you!

flynniversary!

the party was fun!! haha, Thanks ANNE,MARYAM and NABILAH for the great times!!

ME time

yeah, I went to JB for 5 days. For the first 2 days, I stayed at my Uncle's house. It was warm and fun to be with them. I played with my niece and I had fun with her. I went to Jusco Tebrau with my eldest cousin and bought some TOPMAN shirts.. Yeah lame! But it was fun! The food was awesome at my uncle's house! Traditional malay dish! yummayh!!

For the last 3 days there, I went to my cousin's house. It was also very very fun there. I hang out with my cousin Aqeel and Fathin until it was like 3am in the morning! haha, Aqeel and I made plans to go for a jog tomorrow morning. BUT plans are only plans and with my cousin Aqeel? Plans do not turn out how they are planned. So, we slept until it was 12pm! haha, After that, my aunt sent us to the city.

At the city, I was planning to see my friends at City Square but like I always said "friends can wait and I am always fashionably late!" haha, ok. So we went to KOTARAYA food court! The nasi ayam was fucking nice man!! haha, I did some shopping there! Kota Raya was an old place. So the shops there are old and had become BUNDLE! So, the SHIRTS is very very cheap. And they sell band SHIRTS as well.. From the beatles, to the strokes and even the rolling stone! And each shirt only cost RM15!! gila en? but obviously there were no size zero there. So I only bought a pair of slim red jeans.. I don't even know where to wear that thing..

After some KOTA RAYA shopping, we went to City Square and meet my friends. Cash and Fika(lovers at la la land)! haha. And then, we went straight to go and watch THE COFFIN! It was damn LAME!! But there were some suspend moments! haha.. After the movie, I bought some bubble tea there. I had to try it since I've heard so much about it! It was kinda GOOD.. and somehow refreshing! hahaha..

After that, we left cash and fika ALONE and let them date! I went round and round window shopping through city square with my cousins.. hahah

For about half an hour after that, Cash called and said Fika had to go home because her mom asked her to. So, I went and see cash and go back to kotaraya again because cash wanted to buy a band shirt.. And my cousins and I wanted to go to fish spa!! Johor's fish spa is really cheap!! 20 ringgit for 30 minutes! haha!! And fish spa works!! After that, my body feels fresh! hahah, And cash bought THE STROKES shirt. Gila lawa ok! hahaa..

After kota raya, we went around town searching for a place to have dinner.. And then, we went to this shop/cafe/boutique call ROOST! Which I only been once and that place is fucking awesome!! The theme of the place is RETRO 60s and 80s!! I soo need to bring my KL friends there! haha!! The food and drinks were awesome too!! Plus, the boutique sells some retro and vintage stuffs! It is very rare to find it here in KL! But it was expensive of course!! haha..

After ROOST, we went to a bundle near Danga Bay. I bought some really nice INDIE kinda looking T-shirts! But it was worth it!! haha.. 4 T-shirts for RM10! haha.. And I bought one pair of sunglasses. It looked soo vintage!

The next day, we did nothing actually. We went to my aunt's shop and I had fish and chips! After that, I went to KERRY's to buy some prepaid cards and then we went home and hang out with my cousin until it was maghrib. After maghrib, my aunt and my uncle brought us to dinner at 7 spices. It was damn good!! It only served nothern indian kinda food. But there were some MAMAK looked alike food there.. haha.. After that, we went back home and I hang out with my cousin again!

The next day, my cousin and I went to Shah Alam! And I am finally home! haha.. My cousin came here because he wanted me to bring him to the fly fm party! So, I eventually brought him there and it was his first party ever!! hahahahahah!!! I am such a good cousin right?

stressful doing nothing DAY!

Its like PMS for guys !

ok, yesterday you would not believe what I had for desert! I had sorbet, I mixed my dark chocolate and pear. But after I was full, I read the menu and guess what?! the PEAR sorbet was actually called PEAR with WHITE wine!! hahaha, But I guess they did not put any of it there because I did not feel woozy, or whtsoever.. -.-"
and that night, I slept at my sister's house..

Today, after coming home from my sister's house I was suppose to pick my cousin up at Shah Alam Bus station and I wanna packed my bags to sleepover again at my sister;s house. But then my cousin stop at Melaka and was suppose to hitch a ride with my uncle but then for some particular reasons, my uncle was late. So, he had to turn back to JB! shitty, I know.. So, I stayed home for a bit and had a nap.

something happen but I forgot how it went.. hmmm..

But I recieved a call from my other sister(zaza) and she was like scolding me because my other sister(weween) scold her because she left me alone at home.. like wth?! She(zaza) started screaming at me because the plan was that I stayed at my other sister house because of some particular reasons I couldn't tell.. But I was like WTF!! I was soo mad at her because she was mad at me and that she was screaming.. Ok, the reason she was screaming is because that her friends are going to stay at my house and I was there.. So,macam SPOIL la kan? But who the hell cares man?! Plus, I never said that I wanted to stay at my sister(weween) house for the whole week. She is practically HALAU-ing me to go outside the house just because her friends are going to sleep over?!! URGH!! And then I was soo mad at her I shouted at her ears "DAH LAH! NICK TIDO UMAH KAK WEEN! DONT TALK TO ME EVER AGAIN!!" and I cried because of that.. And she asked me why I cried.. I said because I miss my mom -.-" cliche! But actually I cried because she was making me soooooo MAD! haiih! I never remember making any plans about to stay at my sister's house for 2 days.. And so, my sister who scolded me felt bad and brought me to MCD! yeayea whtever! still mad at her though! And I make plans to go to JB and stay with my cousin for 4 days!

hmph, toodles!

why has everything change?

Finally my possy just spoke up !

Yesterday, it was like FRIENDS MAD AT ME day . haha,
Atiq was mad at me because I always boss him around, I mean like if he does not want me to boss him around just tell me off lah. I know I am like the "KING BEE" of my friends but I ain't that bad. Atiq slamed the door at me, wth?! haha. he come around.

So, to get over that fight I followed my other set of friends to hang out at the mamak stall. Guess what?! They were like mad at me as well. For the same reason,! hahaha.. This is like one of those teen movies where the popular girl(the most bitchiest) were being ditch! haha, but for me. I was a GUY! And I am not "BITCHY" only bossy(kot) ! Plus, at that moment I really felt like I had lost all of my friends! hahahaha,

But when they sent me home they did not spoke a word.

As I arrived home, Atiq came and run to me and said "I bought a new phone!" and he showed me.. OMG! it was an LG KS360 phone! I was soo happy and yet a little bit envy of him. Finally I can call him now for him to get my laundry and booked some movie tickets or whatsoever.
ahaha. okok. He is my friend. A very good one perhaps. But I am natural born KING BEE I am the leader of the pack. They have to like LISTEN to me.. DUH!

So, I played with his phone..

At that night, the other set of friends Lily,danny bla bla bla and stuffs called me and asked me out to go to Joey's "mom not home" party at his house. I was like not in the mood to get wild and party. So, I rather stay home and watch THS. haha,

so, the moral of the story is.. (this only goes out to queen/king bees NOT wanna bees)

"do not worry if your ARMY(friends) ditch you or get mad at you. Because fortunately they would come running back to you."

no hope

The dream has all been burned! The hope has turned into ashes! The chances has turned into smoke!

That condition best describe me of having my 8 A's! I hope that I would get them. But my family thinks that I have no hope of getting any of it. My mum said that she would pray the best for me for my results. But, what if the best for me is 8C's? She would be the one who is disappointed. Because I know I had try my best and whatever happens. It's fate! And I am ready to be blindfolded and not turning back to what has just happen. My aunt asked me about "how many A's" would I get. I answered 8A's, but she smiled and said "haha, okok REALITY la."
My brother said that I would only get 3A's because for my trials, I was collecting D's instead of A's..

I really really really want to have 8A's and I have promised to my family that I will not asked for anything if I get 8A's because 8A's is something that I want to achieve and 8A's itself would be the best present ever! And seeing my family being sooo proud of me... That would be soooooo freaking COOL! Because I have not achieve anything in my life so far.. Now, this is the time..

until then,

one second

i look so hot kan? *sarcastic*

Just watch High School Musical for the 2nd time! OH MY GAWD! Bosan much?! But I really do think that I look so much like Zac Efron.. hahahahaha.. haaaa,
today is suppose to be a relaxing ME time type of day and I was planning to have lunch with my aunty.. I mean, she was PLANNING to have lunch with me. :) So, okay lah! I do not mind it that much since I am saving my money for the next 46 days when my mum is not around.

So far, everyone is being nice. SMS-ed me about that they are willing to help if I need help about anything when my mum is not around. My uncle give me nasi briyani for dinner yesterday and I thought to save it for lunch today. But my aunty had asked me to go for lunch today kan? So I planned to save that nasi briyani for dinner.

I hoped that my mum would pray for me to get my 8A's.. I hoped that would get my 8A's..

so,,
toodles

until then,

love,
Nick

missing

I just sent my brother and my mother to tabung haji kelana jaya to sent them to HAJJ! I will not see my mom for 1 and a half months doh!! I am soo gonna miss her,

until then,

p/s: I cried

scream park!

I went to scream park yesterday afternoon! OH MY GOD! That was one of a hell out of a scream park! I was screaming all the way..

okay, so it when like this:

Meyy,anne,atiq and I were hugging eachother.. Practically, we were holding on and hugging on to meyy because he was tough and had a body of a builder. So we went in, in front of us was Nabilah,yasmin,nadhirah and rydah.. yeah! The power girls were at the front. -.-"

The room was dark, very dark! And the rules is that you can't touch the ghost and the ghost will not touch you. And once you go in, you may never turn back. Not even once! (but i beg the tour guide that i wanna go out) pffft!! hahah..
And then suddenly it was all red. I see something moving in front of me and suddenly someone's breath is on my neck. Chills were given to me from my head to my spine! The zombie just attacked me and make sounds like a phyton snake. I screaaaaammmmmm... Unfortunately, I accidentally screamed at Anne's ears.. haha.. At that time, I beg Atiq that I wanted to be at the center because I was sooo freakin scared! The zombie keep bullying me because I was the one who screams ALOT! hahaha.. And I shouted "TAAKK NAKKKKK!! I GAVE UP!! NAK MATI!!"
and the zombie was like "Kau nak mati? aku boleh tolong kau..sssssss" and I was like "okok tak nak mati tak nak mati.." So, we had to move on to the next room.. I do not know how, suddenly I was not at the center no more! haha.. I scream because I heard THUNDERSTORMS at the other room. And then I slowly turn around, and there it was! If that looks could kill.. It would! The zombie was 1cm behind me.. I screeaaaaammm at the top of my lungs and JUMP at Meyy's back.. and hugged him so that he would protect me..

At the 2nd room, we were suppose to wear 3D glasses. As we went in, everything just GLOWS. My shirt and my teeth became blue. haha. And then another mysterious tour guide come and separated Meyy and I.. So I was left with Atiq, 2 sweden's tourist and 2 australian tourist.. After 5 minutes the tour guide brought us to a tunnel.. The tunnel spin round and round like the tunnel in TWILIGHT ZONE.. hahaha freakay! that TUNNEL leads us to the 3rd room.. Which was the RUMAH HANTU!

And there was a new tour guide with black hooded JUBAH and said to us "WELCOME TO RUMAH HANTU, PLEASE ENJOY THE ADVENTURE AND REMEMBER DO NOT TOUCH THE GHOST AND THE GHOST WILL NOT TOUCH YOU"
That time I was hugging and scratching Atiq's stomach.. And then we were let in.. At first there was nothing.. But then, I heard a loud BOOM and I screaaaammmm because the ghost was camouflage on the wall.. There was soo many ghost in that RUMAH HANTU! The ghost just make sounds and nearly touch us.. I hugged atiq and that sweden guy all the way.. hahahahah.. And from that rumah hantu, it leads us to the last room which was the prison break live!

There was a guard and it told us the same thing what the tour guide said to us but this time was like this "do not touch the prisoner and the prisoner wont touch you" and then he open the door.. A crazy man just POPS out of the door with bloods all over his face and scare us! It was pretty scary at that room because the lights was on and off all the way.. And you would get lost easily in that room because it was confusing.. I see prisoner trying to catch me and some of them whisper at me and some of them just shouted at me! I was trying so hard to find my way out.. And then, I saw Atiq, I run to him and hugged him very very tightly... Thank god, after that we were OUT of scream park.. YES! I made it through prison break! and most of all I made it through it all!!

running,

Yesterday was a fun and bad day. Eventually my friends and I were suppose to watch KAMI. But then one of them was broke. So, Nabilah and I when and watch MAMMA MIA. It was kinda an OLDIES movie. With the songs back from the 70s or 80s. But it was FUN! And unfortunately we had to go before the movie ends because we were going to see our other friend Anne.

At the taxi which we pay for RM21!! hish! The driver was being fuckingly rude.. here's the conversation:

nick was calling atiq about the plan to go to Anne's house,

nick: Atiq kiteorang dah bertolak from sunway
atiq: ouh okok, erm i nak kena bayar duit tuition dulu then kita gy umah anne.
nick: ok.

**

nick: Bang, lepas ni amek kawan saya then hanta kat KGSAAS boleh? bayar extra
stupiduneducatedriver: (being rude) TAK BOLEH!
(he thinks he is already rich KOT sb tu jadi pemandu teksi)

**

at permata,

nick: bang hanta saya kat block satu eyh,
stupiduneducatedriver: KAU NAK AKU HANTA BLOCK SATU MACAMANA AKU NK TAU,
KAU CAKAP LA KIRI KE KANAN KE, BODO
BETOL!
nick: KANAN KANAN! *raising my voice*
so he drop us off,
nick: Terima kasih, NOT! ouh thnks for being rude.
(obviously dia tak faham..)

So we walk to anne house. While walking, anne and acap was riding a scooter and pick us up.. But anne let nabilah ride with acap. So I hugged anne and we walk to her house. OTW to her house, I tried to drive the scooter and guess what?! I hit the divider!! hahaha.. cibai betol! Acap was laughing.. babi!!!!! And so, we went to the KGSAAS and have tea there..

so that was the summary of that day

desperate

you know, everyone has a secret. A secret they never tell. Although you think that your bestestfriends has told you every little detail about themselves but you know that they have the deepest darkest secret they never tell you. right? Sometimes secrets is a sign of desperation. don't you think so?

aliran apa?

Tomorrow is the day where I will choose which class am I to go next year. This process is also known as streaming. Pening Kepala! I myself do not know what am I to be when I grow up. Apa nak jadi lah!! I was thinking about taking accountancy and economics and an extra subject which is Visual Arts. And I was also thinking about just taking just VISUAL ARTS and TASAWWUR ISLAM. But if I take the ARTS and TASAWWUR ISLAM class, there would not be a wide choices for me to go to university after my SPM because people who were assigned to this class usually the "not so rajin" people and I may not have any friends there. But my SPM results would be the BOMB if I take ARTS and TASSAWUR ISLAM. My sister said it was an easy class, and her SPM results for TASSAWUR ISLAM was THE BOMB. But, the problem is that if I take that particular class, I would not have any friends. So, I think I would go and take accountancy and economics. NO SCIENCE STREAM! Don't put that in my head! so,,

until then,

ouh, life after PMR

The moment that I come out from the hall, I felt that the world and freedom is all mine. It feels like a whole lot of weight is lifted from my heart and my head. I feel like jumping out of the building. I feel like I just want to fly! ok, I'm over doing it right?

So, right after PMR. Shasha, Yasmin and I went to breakfast at the Old Town White Coffee kopitiam in Plaza Massalam. It was fun because we get to chat, gossiping and laughing around with no guilty feeling in our head telling us to"pegi belajar pegi belajar." (urgh I'm glad thats over!) Anyway, after that we went home..

At home, there were like 88 messages in my inbox! Inviting me to go to their open houses and stuffs. So, I decided not to go any of it except for closes friends and family only. After that, I slept the whole day! I dream about everything and anything!

On saturday Atiq,Saffy and I went to sunway lagoon. We had so much FUN! we hang at the surf beach, we ride the roller coaster and we gossip. But I never knew that my friends were afraid of roller coaster and topsy turvy rides.. -.-" boring kan dorang? I know,
That night, I went out partying!! haha, it was fun seeing my friends and dance with them, kutuk-ing the people there and stuffs, and of course they were too drunken to remember any of that! -.-"

On sunday, I went beraya with my mum at her friends house. I get RM100 from that particular house. siot en?

On monday, my friends and I went to sunway and watch house bunny and KAMI the movie! OMG, KAMI the movie was fucking good seyh! House bunny makes me HORNEYH! hahah, I saw Siti there and asked her if she was a virgin and she said she was. So, I planned on to have an Aztec partayh! hahaha,

Today was pfft siket, we went to secret recipe and chat. I saw danny, saffy's BF. As usual he was quite macam orang BISU. haha, but we had a LOT of food. And tomorrow is a schooling day for me, its the day for me to choose my streams. I think I would take accountancy and economics.

so,

until then!

Freedom is mine!

PMR is over!!!!! I so can;t believe it doh! Its the day I've been waiting for,for the whole year KOT! So, c ya everywhere! Because I'm like spending the holidays HERE and some of it in JB! Call me if you wanna see me, I'll get back to you when I;m not busy!

lets repent,

today is the last day of school before PMR, miss two period because I was hanging out with Siti who was obsessing over her BF. Layan kan je lah, haha. Didn't feel like going to school today but I have to take this PMR slip or else I can't sit for my PMR. shitty right? Anyway, to you guys who reads my blog and have anything to say about it just comment on the pink box on the right. Ouh, and I would really appreciate it. Because people at school come up to me and say "ouh best gile your blog" "I like your blog" and some of them are STRANGERS who I do not know. So, comment je, jangan malu malu. And btw, to all the form threes who will be taking their PMR this year. Lets break it on! Ouh and, a little peek at your friend's answers won't hurt.

until then,

p/s on the 17th of october at 9.31 am strikes! Freedom is Mine

PMR! this monday,

Good luck to the form threes! Lets show them what we got, we could end this war with 8 sweet freaking A's. Let's hold our hands and do this together, because this is the time that you're gonna be free. All your freakin best form 3!

until then,

this is me,

I'm hiding behind those eyes,
I'm drowning behind all the lies,

You could see me fake my life behind a picture,
You could see me fake my life in front of the mirror.

Who am I?

do you know?

not even I know myself,
and I live in ME,

tomorrow I will start a new chapter,
a new beginning,
and a new end.

I will write a new book on a new page,
choose the words carefully,
write it in ink,
in a blank piece of paper.

so HI, I am Nick Raja Adam.

this is me!

Hari Raya Pictures lah!

Selamat Hari Raya!

First day of Raya

The morning of the first day of raya was annoying, my brother left me at home because I was late to go to solat raya of course my mom got mad at me, so I was like wtvr. After that, I bath and wore my Baju Melayu. It was gold and my pants was a black jeans plus my samping is also gold which is my dad's. But the samping was like "rosak" and my brother blamed me for it and he told my mother and my mom being the usual HER she was also blaming me for it. WTH?! I did not do it lah kong! Anyways, that was like grrr sikit.

After that, we went to auntie Na's house we ate Nasi Dal. To tell you the truth I have not tasted Nasi Dal before but heck that was like the BOMB! We took some pictures using Auntie Na's phone with bob and lala(cousins) and we were also waiting for uncle sufian and my cousins suraya and poi. 15 minutes later, they arrived. It was kinda meriah and we gossip about Ekin and Mawi, haha. And my cousin Suraya brought her cool shades. Jason Mraz look a like shades la, and menda tu boleh lipat lipat. It was very cute and stylish. So, my siblings and I was like thinking to get one of those since it can be lipat lipat! haha.. Then abang poi took some pictures with his digital camera. It was kinda fun and a warm celebration of pagi raya. Plus, I did collect about 3 angpows from that house. awesome ah!

Right after that, my family and I went to my sister punya in laws house at gombak, yeah I saw baby Ezekiel and kiss him like I was going to eat him and of course he cried! ahaa! We ate rendang and ketupat plus lemang. Ouh and theres some lontong. I collect 4 angpows at that particular house! haha, fucking rich ouh!

At about 3.30pm we went to Uncle Sufian's house at wangsa maju. We ate some Harisa(johor's dish) and some secret recipe cake! yummy! After that my mum and my cousin talk talk talk because we were waiting for my other cousin Kak Naya. After she arrived, she talk with my family as well and we had some laugh here and there. So, after that we took some pictures and collect my angpows, ouh and Uncle Sufian give me my Dad's songkok which he left there 5 years ago! haha..

At the end of the raya celebration, we went to our family friends house at Pantai Hill Park, we ate some ketupat and kuah kacang plus some daging dinding KOT! it was soo pedas! haha but sedap. And I collect about 2 angpows there! And after that, we went straight back home because everyone feels like we're gonna POOP.

and my duit raya for that day is about 224 ringgit. Alhamdulilah!

until then,

what am I to do?!

dah malam raya dah! OMG! I remember like it was just yesterday ramadhan started, and now it is the end. Esok I'll be busy PETIK taugeyh and kemas rumah. haha, I can't wait to eat my mom's famous laksa JOHOR! which she would only cooked once a year (typical mak). I can't wait to see my relatives tomorrow, aunty anna and aunty sah will be breaking their last fast here in my house with my family and the new member of the family which is Ezekiel! OMG, he is so cute! Anyway, I nak study now, this is just a short post!

until then,

Selamat Hari Raya,

wah! Raya is just 2 days away and my shitty PMR is around the corner, how shitty can this be? I am not ready la weyh! But at the same time, I just want to get over it and done with! wah!
I did my shopping yesterday, OMG! That was the best one ever!! I bought two cardigans and like a whole lot of shorts and jeans plus shirts and T-shirts. But my personal favorite is my hush puppies linen shirt! It is like so fucking-ly hot doh! And I bought 2 kasut raya! Thanks to my mom and brother and the duit anak yatim that I got from school. But I think they can give it to someone who needs the money much more then I do. But then again, I'm thankful and hope that you guys who donate for the anak yatim thing will have a MERIAH celebration for raya and murah rezeki. Thank you soo much, I'll repay you someday somehow.

So far, my puasa PENUH and I hope that my pocket would be PENUH with angpow's and duit raya from all of my relatives. Ouh, just now I just came back from seeing Ezekiel (new nephew) he looks all grown up! hahaha.. He will be one month old tomorrow, I can't wait for him to grow up and be all naughty plus sweaty and stuffs! To me, naughty kids are very cute! betul tak?

"Nick nick nick, bila lah engkau nak belajar ni nick.." that is what my heart always tells me. But my mind is like "Nick, check myspace sekejap je. Ouh, pukul 11.30 ada the nanny kat tv" and I'll end up being stupid until 3 am in the morning! shitshitshit!!!

Trials and post Trials are ooooverrrr! Thank god, my mathematics is improving but my sejarah is like shit! boooooo!! And at the last day of school which was also the last day of my post trials, my friend and I was bored then we ended up taking pictures in front of the class. With those sexy pose and the cute pose to hide our ugliness made our day fun!!

And so, to all my readers! "Sir Lump Mud Hairy Rare Ya Eye Deal Feet Three Moo Liar" get it?

anyways what I am trying to say is "Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri Mulia!" maaf zahir dan batin!

apple rocket cherry

Sometimes I feel that my friends and some people are going against me. Is it true?
Please, if you hate me just tell me off la weyh!
Don't go and be childish by taking sides
or just go with my flow, if you do not agree with what I say or what I do,
you can just tell me what I did wrong because I give you the permission too.
But do not take sides and 'berkomplot' to attack me because you do not agree with
what I plan or what I say, a slow talk would be good ok?
If you think my answers are wrong when I say it is right,
Then just tell me your reasons why is my answers WRONG.
Don't go and give up and say "ye lah ye lah"
That's so rude!
And NEVER ask me to shut up!
:ASKED POLITELY:
And, if I ever did anything wrong to you, "ACCIDENTALLY" please do not shout or marah me
because you know that does not work with me.
again "ASKED POLITELY"
boleh?
Do not raise your voice at me,
Do not shout at me,
Do not take sides,
and Do not asked me to SHUT UP!
Plus, I am sorry if I ever did anything wrong to you.
Kalau kau tak puas hati dengan aku kan, kau bagitau elok elok sudah!
Tak yah nak marah marah sebab kalau kau marah marah , lagi aku akan buat bertambah teruk
faham?

This does not goes to you "S"
this goes to all of my friends and classmates

:Don't blame me if I intimidate you:

freedom is mine!

The last paper is on friday at 9.30am. Right after that, my friends and I will stay at my home for half an hour to change their clothes and we will go straight to Sunway Lagoon Scream Park.. Hahaha.. Lame but Fun! We would kinda spend like 2 hours in the scream park. Because it will take time buying the tickets and queing up the line and bla bla bla.. While queing up, I will make reservations for tickets to go and watch some movies there, we will watch KAMI the movie and after this activity, we will go straight to cineleisure and watch mamma mia.. So, thats the plan right after PMR.

After that, I'll be going to JB and spending time with my cousins or you might see me at the hottest spot everywhere.. And maybe I might just attending parties and events and stuffs! Plus, on November, my dearest cousin will be on a holiday in KL. So, I am now a Kuala Lumpurian and I have to bring her to the hottest spot in KL lah KOT!

So by the end of october, my dear friend Saffy will be moving to IPOH.. Sad much?

But on the early of december,my friends and I will go to IPOH and visit her!! hahah.. Ouh and, maybe we will go to maxwell hill or pulau pangkor! I hope its Pangkor doh!! shit!

But before she goes, I am having a dinner party just for her friends and saffy herself! And it is a cuban party yaw!! hahaha.. Dress to impress and hope you got the invites!!

untill then,

my ambitous ambition

I dream BIG! I admit that I dream very very BIG!! But as much as I ever dream big, my hard work and effort is never big enough to achieve that BIG dreams, shittay ain't it? I did PLAN to get 8 A's for my PMR but that is a BIG BIG lost, because I have wasted my times playing around. I know I could only get maximum 5A's and minimum 3A's.. Anyway, I just want to forget about my PMR dilemma.. I just want to achieve my goals in life.. Which I will keep that as a secret and let no one knows what it is.. But there would be one think for sure, you people who reads this will see my face in the business magazine as one of the richest man in the whole wide world.. And I know, I have to start from scratch to achieve that dream.. You people can say that I only think about MONEY and stuffs but at the same time you know that MONEY buys everything.. I choose MONEY to LOVE, because if there is no MONEY, how are you going to support your LOVE ones? Those words like "we have each other" is sweet and stuffs but that does not make you truly happy inside.. I WILL BE RICH! I WILL HELP THOSE UNFORTUNATE PEOPLE! I WILL SOMEHOW CHANGE THE WORLD! I WILL BE A BETTER MUSLIM! I WILL BE HAPPIER! I WILL BE SICK FREE! I WILL ACHIEVE THIS DREAMS!

"MAKESURE YOU MARK MY WORDS RIGHT NOW"