Supreme Sunday

today I woke up at 8am and thought to myself "ok nick, today do some Add maths and then accounts and gosok baju and kemas bag" and then I went to the toilet and brush my teeth after that I bathe, while bathing I thought "Eh, add maths dah lepas, belajar accounts and Sejarah la" and then I walk out of the shower and went to the dryer and pick a boxer and my brothers size L led zeppelin T shirt that he just bought. hee. Anyway, I wore those things and took my accounts book and actually studied! One hour later-- I went to the refrigerator for a milo, and there it was the Exam Timetable.

and I thought, "eh, today is the 31st! OMGOMGOMG!! Exam dah habis and now is the holidayss!"

I closed my accounts book and went back to sleep :)

until then,

and I go,

HUSH now, don't shake or break

currently listening to I go by Aizat :)

Anyway, sorry about my last post because I was in a rush. OK, yesterday I was suppose to blog about the teachers day and of course my performance. But I was too lazy and so Atiq and I went to the park and light up. Only me la not Atiq.

It has come to leasure us,

The HOLIDAYS baby, its the HOLIDAYS!

Finally, the day we have all been waiting for. I can't wait until its Monday and then its BFF shopping day! After Monday is Tuesday and then its Spade baby. And after that--well, let it be spontaneous :)

Yesterday was teachers day and I performed. Oh, I rocked harder than those people who said that I can't rock. I get the most flowers, you?

Anyway, I need to have my lunch now, ttym!

until then

jealousy is a such a mean ol thang

I just can't work under pressure it brings me down to the core. I hate it when people gets jealous because its annoying, Jealousy is just something that intimidates you and it shows that your lack of confidence. Please don't tell me things you know I do not want to hear and please make sure if you want to tell me things, BE SURE that you give the RIGHT and FULL information. Or else don't talk or speak at all. And please don;t try to bring me down because now I realize that it hurts and I'm not that strong emotionally. Two people just bring me down on the 28th of May 2009 and it hurts emotionally and mentally. Don;t do that to me, PLEASE. :/ I may seem strong and confident but now I realize that I'm actually weak. So, please don;t harm a harmless creature like me ok?

jailhouse birthday,

Maxis Broadband is so fucked up at night, urgh. I'm currently listening to Birthday by Leighton Meester and Jailhouse baby by Paris Hilton. Leighton Meester's single is kinda catchy--its the kind of music that would be one of my favorite dance song. Jailhouse baby is my current favourite gedik song. Anyway, I listen to all kinds of music from rock to hip hop to RnB to pop to screamo to emo to everything. As long as it makes my head bangs or shake my bootie. :)

OMG Leighton Meester's(Blair Woldorf) new song is so effin my kinda of music man, its so Pop Rock. It's soo ME! hehe.

I suggest you listen to it on my myspace profile :) Listen, dance and sing!

until then

i don;t wanna lose it,

I failed Mathematics -.-" yes. And I will flunk my History, Science, Add Maths and Accounts :( Shit head la sial! Mathematics paper 2 is easy but I did not study for the gradient and straight line plus I did not payed any attention in class while the teacher is teaching that chapter oh wait, I did not studied for mathematics -.-" I keep telling myself that its okay because this is form 4 and I did DID not take this papers seriously, I mean I know that form 4 is important, we have been told since we were form 1 that form 4 is not a honeymoon year and I know that its not, that is why I sometimes concentrate more in class than I did last year. Well I only changed 5% about my studying attitude since last year I think. I'm not THAT dissapointed because I know I did not studied and it serves me right. OK, after the midhols, there could only be LIMITED internet access and I HAVE to pay more attention in class.

OK, lets not think about that,

I'm going to sing WOMANIZER for teachers day. Pn Salwani said that my performance was sexy, -.-" I think its because of my GEDIK voice while singing that song. haha. Well, I want everyone to sing along while I'm singing womanizer okay? You people HAVE to sing along because other kids would sing all those boring songs. Hazami and what not. My performance is going to be fun and sexy, sexy and fun. Alright? good :) But, it won't be SEXY and FUN without your help. So sing along oh and give me flowers :)

Besides that,

BFF shopping day is near, spade and some other things. You know what, I'm not that excited anymore because Maths results just spoils my day. But hay, I'll get strong soon. Oh and today there were only 9 people in my class. -.-" Sad right? School seems kinda empty just now, not much laughter but I did make everyone laugh. haha.

oh I'm done :)

until then

3 weeks of killing trees is over,

Oh freedom is finally mine baby, no more papers and the trees are save for awhile. Mid term was mid fucking hard okeyy. Its so hard that my brain was practically beating. But let bygones be bygones. Lets talk abt the present and the future and that is-- THE HOLIDAYS BABY.

the present:

1) Have to practice the WOMANIZER song for hari guru, cool en?
2) Have to collect money from the family for shopping day,
3) Have to confirm with my friends if they're going to spade.
4) Need to ask the teacher if I could drop accounts and replace it with commerce.
5) Let the teachers day be boring and it would be fun when I sing WOMANIZER :0

the future:

1) BFF shopping day! Must have--leather pants, short pants and some random shirts and t-shirts
2) SPADE party baby, have to make new friends and meet the old ones and catch up with my acquaintances. Oh, Nikki and Yasmin and Whoever will be there--lets dance our ASS off :)
3) If I have the money, then go genting lah.
4) JB baby, hang out with Nabilah and Anne. Bring them around town-- JB would be fun!
5) Fathin and Aqeel is coming to KL. soo, nak buat apa?

and then--school starts, results keluar and open day. I die. The end

until then,

no doubt is back baby,

My favorite all time band is back baby, I know almost all of their songs! I love no doubt, too bad for me that this is their last time together and then gwen is retired I guess. My favorite song is Its my life-- gosh! Thats THE best no doubt song ever right? Don't you agree? I'm sure that you guys, loves Don't Speak right? Who cares, I love that song too! Gosh! I hope that they're coming to Malaysia soon baby :) I love their fashion and of course their fantastic music kan?

anyway, My bro just bought a new flat screen TV :) need to help him figuring it out on how to use the TV :)

until then,

2 more papers baby,

Wow, I love this fashion blog-- www.jakandjil.com
its so fashionably fashionable, like me :)

anywho, Accounts was effin hard okay, and I only answered 2 questions and I'm not even sure that the 2 questions that I answered would be all correct. I've been thinking to drop accounts and add commerce and tassawur islam. boleh la tu, accnts mcm babi. I hate it :/

anyway,
BFF shopping day nak dekat honeeyyy. I hope that theres leather pants and short pants :) Its been a while since my last shopping day, and I hope that it will be as cheap as it is in JB. Please oh dearest god !

Anyway, theres only 2 more papers left and after that I can rest my mind in peace. I can type much more slower, I hate typing fast because my mom said its time to study. I hate rushing. Lets take it to the chill bill and take a chill pill :)

until then,

p/s freedom is mine tomorrow :) ilysm!

5 more papers left and then I'm done :)

1 week more to go until BFF shopping day, apparently my BFF shopped before I did, So I think she is short on money and I bet she will not come to the BFF shopping day and I can shop alone wondering why I'm so stupid because I did not spend my money at the JUNKSALE in JB, where as my BFF found what she is looking for and I did found what I'm looking for,only I thought that if I spend my money then, it would be unfair because I thought that she already saved some money for the big day, but hell naw she aint not effin care. She spend it -.-" not all but only 30 bucks, but the leather pants that I wanted to buy in JB also cost 30 bucks. In KL it would be double the price there :( Let me suffer in my stupidity alone,

anyway, after shopping. I would pray that I will not fail this mid term. please oh dearest god please no failing.

dah la nk study accnts ni, bye :)

Happy 1st birthday oh dearest BLOG!

Its been a year since this blog was made, I made this blog because I was inspired by gossip girl -.-" notice how my post is somehow a wannabe post like gossip girl? Yes, I'm sure some of you gossip girl followers notice but who the hell cares, sometimes I just be ME in this blog. Being ME is what I do best, I post EVERYDAY but it does not seem everyday in public because there are some posts in my account that needs to be private. The post where I trash all of you, the post where I let out all of my feelings, the post where I rated the people in my school is all privated to protect myself. hehe.

Anyway, I'm in love with this blog and will never made a new one. This blog has been stalked by an anonymous fella TWICE, it has been changing its URL a couple of times from nickstories to nicklagenda to diaryviolated, it has change its title from stories by nick to nico by nick to nick lagenda to amnesia by nick lagenda, it has been the TALK about the people around me because of the kissing picture, it also has been a TALK to my family because one of my aunt spotted my blog and reads it so I change my URL because I'm embarrass. It also has kept my secrets and failed to told anyone because my blog is the one that I trust the most in life besides my family and closest friends.

I LOVE YOU OH DEAREST BLOG! I will write in this blog until I die, Happy Birthday To You and lets just hope you will produce more great stories and gossip from me and secrets too! And stay away from hackers :)

until then,

so you better treat me right,

you know if you have something that is on your mind about me that your not satisfied with, please tell me face to face. I notice that you've changed and its annoying how you somehow in your own stupid way you hurt my feelings but you did not notice it. I for once being a good person did not even say anything to you because I know you have a lot of thousand reasons you could give me but its all bullshit man. I am not very good at patience and you know that,

until then,

eh, bosan la

I'm 170cm tall
I don’t know what I want at the moment.
I’m not happy.
I hate my friends.
I hate my life.
I hate my grades.
I can drive.
I’m bored of driving.
I have a white handbag.
I love dancing.
I go clubbing every week.
Shopping is bullshit
I have a tattoo of a star.
I got my navel pierced.
I have friends that take drugs.
90% of my friends smoke.
I still hang out with my ex, even though our break up was rather nasty.
I’m studying Fashion.
I have a business running.
I hate cartoons.
I hate someone.
I have 10 Lollipops handbags.
I buy CLEO every month.
My parents don’t know about my blog.
I have an iPOD
I don't have faith in the current "one"
My school mates know about my blog.
I wanted to be a fashion designer.
I love rock emo bands.
I hate it when people cancel last minute meet ups.
I’m a rebel.
I don’t believe in love.
High school's filled with drama.
My parents have faith in me.
I’ve bought shoes this month.
A blogger bitched about me before.
I hate sports.
I heart Italian food.
I hate meeting new people.
I hate nail polish.
The mother bear gives me hugs.
People should start appreciating me.
High school was the worst time of my life.
I have red hair.
One Utama is my second home
I’m a guy.
I’m scared of my Biology exam which I’m going to face tomorrow.
I hate vacations.We’ll last :)
I believe in long distance relationship
I’m going to get high and smoke weed one day soon.
I’ve robbed an old lady.
I’m starting to like applying make-up.
I was a tomboy.
At times I think I still am a tomboy.
I love bitching about people behind their backs I still have a best friend.
I have a cat.
I hate surprise parties.
I hate planning parties
I’m hot. :P
I’m a sinner.
I've got a DS light
I have a Wii.
I can live without music
Video games are a waste of time.
I miss the father bear.
I love being in love.
I know how to cook.
I have 100% freedom.
boys are assholes
I hate Math.
I’m happy with what I have
I love horror films.
I slept in my parents’ room for 3 days after watching Scream when I was a kid.
My old friends keep in touch with me.
I don’t read newspapers.
The news is such a waste of time.
Blogging is a waste of time.
I hate animals.
I can't live without make-up.
I curse like a pirate.
I’m happy with my 11 year old car.
I hate people that are smart.
I love Orange juice.
I can’t drink for nuts.
I believe that everyone in their teens have lost their virginity.
I've got a new phone
I’m going to get a new pair of shoes by the end of this month.
I love swimming.
I haven’t worked out since March.
I think I’m fat
I love my friends and family

dear friends whom I've tagged. Please bold the one that is true on this list and italicize the one that you wished were true :) after that you post and then die :)


and so, I tagged the followers of my blog :
1) Nikki Iman
2) Nurlyn Syaheera
3) Najiha Hakim
4) Nabilah Radzi
5) Yasmin Musa.

these are the blogs that I love to read in my spare time.

ain't got no sunshine :)

I'm listening to Kris's Allens version of Ain't no sunshine by sting. I wish I could sing like him, he is my new favorite Male Singer. Wait, he is the only FAVORITE male singer that I have.

theres 2 more papers left for accounts, 1 more for PSV, agama and sejarah. Five more papers left baby. Then I'm free to the core!

hot fever and mystery guy.

GOSH, yesterday was the worst fever that I could ever had. My whole body was really painful. I feel like its broken into a thousand pieces. My head was spinning practically right round right round. I could not concentrate on my exams especially Bahasa Malaysia. So, I left the novel part because I was too sick. I went back home and told my mother that I did not want to go for my accounts tution. I did not even bath, I change my clothes and just wore a boxer shorts that was very short BTW, and slept until 7.00pm. By the time I woke up, I did not feel better. I feel WORST! I feel like I'm gonna die. Seriously, I was nearly close to give someone my blogger,myspace and facebook password because I really thought that I'm gonna dia.

After dinner, I took 2 panadols, an antibiotic and some pain killer and slept again on the couch. I woke up at 3.00am because I was sweating like I was running a marathon. The panadol is really working on my body and so, I walked to my bedroom and change to my singlet.

While I was searching for my renoma black singlet. I heard someone was using the bathroom and humming, I seriously heard someone bathing and humming. But, my mum and my sister were asleep. And so, I thought the humming voice in the toilet was my brother. I kept on searching for my singlet. I somehow forgot that there was someone in the bathroom and so I went in because I wanted to pee. As I was pee-ing. I suddenly remembered that there was someone in the bathroom and I thought "eh, bukan abang ada ke tadi dekat dalam toilet?" and went out of the toilet. While I was closing the bathroom door, I did saw my brother searching for his clothes and I asked him "sejak bila abang keluar dari toilet? tak nampak pun" but he kept quiet. So, I ignored him and went to my mom's bedroom because her bedroom was cool and slept there.

I woke up and get ready for school at 7.00am. Usually, I would see my brother still sleeping while I was getting ready. But he was not on his bed today. I asked my mom, "ma, abang mana?"
My mum answered "Abang tak balik rumah la, dia ada seminar apa ntah."

who was the guy humming in the toilet?

scaray right? I know, I did not told my mum because she might think that it will just be my imagination. But I swear its not.

until then,

oh monday,

It's just another manic Monday. Nikki's boyfriend/lover/bff named Nik who apparently seem to be very funny and kind, and whoever he is towards Nikki picked us up from school and then we went and hang around old town white coffee. Actually, we are not allowed to. But, we don;t got no paper after recess. So what the hell right?

Just finished covered Economics. *wheew. Tiring lah! after studying, I practice my Art drawings. Its kinda easy once you get the hang of it actually. AND now, I'm listening to N'sync la sial. haha. It brings back the memories when I was 5, that my sister sang one of the songs when I was asleep. I was awaken by her singing along towards on of the N'sync song. Or is it backstreet boys? I forgot. But whatever it is, I'm listening to N'sync now :) haha

anyway, blablabla. Today was normal :) Oh, Monday-- You bring out the lazy side of me. WAIT! I'm always LAZY. But I try to be hardworking tomorrow ;)

until then,

my recent trip to JB

roost JB,

the boutique next to roost

the entrance

the menu

the wallpaper

pictures taken by this blog that I found and this restraunt blog which I will tell you later

Ok, my family and I went to JB because of my brother's MERISIK thingy. I still can't believe my bully brother is going to get married. It'll be just me and my other sister left. Anyway, we went for a family dinner first, with my aunties, uncles, cousins, nephew and nieces. We had seafood Johor. They ordered tons of crabs and prawns. Unfortunately, I am allergic to crabs and prawns so all I had was sweet and sour fish, tom yam, balitong and some veggies. Dinner was nice anyway, BURRP.

After dinner, we went back to my grannys house and put our bags there and a few minute later my brother and I went to this JUNK SALE behind ROOST. Junk Sale was fun! Unfortunately, I did not bring any money because I'm saving for BFF shopping day. But, at the same time I was dissapointed because the things there were RARE and vintage and damn nice weyh! Sumpah! And its very very cheap okay! The shorts shorts that I'm looking for cost only 20 ringgit. I thought about asking my brother to belanja me. But then, my brother said he will cut it from my birthday money. So, I kept quiet. The junk sellers were very fashionable and stylish. They are my kind of people :)

Junk sale is located behind this place called ROOST. I will go to ROOST everytime I go back to JB because the place is very cozy and vintage. By vintage, I really meant vintage. They only sell juices and only a few choices of food. They also sell very RARE stuff at their boutique with reasonable prices. It's coolest than any other place here in KL or SHAH ALAM. Its a good place to hang out and have juices with your friends. SUMPAH roost gempak! And they only have a few tables in the whole damn restraunt. At your first sight, you will thought that roost is like an abandon place because it really looks like it. But hay, dont judge a book by its cover right? Its furniture is inspired by the year 1970s and the owner did say that he/she got those old furnitures at her/his grandparents house. And the juices is serve in a small bucket. Cool kan?

I know,

anyway, I need to study now, smell you later :)

until then,

exams report:

I screwed ALOT! ALOT of papers that I screwed and effed up, I don't think that I could even get a single A. Its very frustrating and disappointing. Sometimes teachers are so stupid, why do they put add maths and history all in one day? Obviously, WE would study Add Maths MORE because we have been told since like forever that Add Maths is very hard. And you should be thankful that you could get at least a C. And for that, History is being ignored. :) thank you very much. Just to find out that Add Maths is much more easier than History. How fucked up is that? I left one WHOLE page for history, and for the essay-- I only did one paragraph. CONGRATULATIONS la Nick! :)

And for Bahasa Malaysia-- I screwed up Bahagian A. I was paying TOO much, by TOO much I really meant it specifically that I was paying TOO much attention to Bahagian B rather than bahagian A. And I finished Bahagian B at 9.45am while the paper ends at 10.00am. So, anything that popped out of my head was written on the paper for Bahagian A. yeah.

Thank you GOD that Modern Maths was not that HARD. It was an OKAY paper. I only left certain questions. :)

Tomorrow, is Economics and English! GOD! Economics!! MUST GET A FOR ECONS or DIE!

:)

until then,

p/s-- I'm away for the weekends to plan my Bro's wedding. Oh, and for the exams too! My mum changed my laptop's password. Life is so hard without Myspace and Facebook. But its for the best ! :)

internet-a-holic

Do they have a rehab center for internet addiction teens? If they do, tell me how much. I'm willing to pay. :)

Anyway, I can't seem to study RIGHT. Every time I study, the internet keeps calling me. I'm still stuck on chapter 1 for add maths. And I don't freaking understand how to do the composite fucking fucktions! Please, oh dearest god help me :|

I love add maths. I really do, its just that they don't bring that much sense into my life. I mean, why oh why figures sometimes makes me mad? But when I can get the answers right, it makes me real happy. The feeling is like orgasm. Much better than orgasm. Its an indescribable feeling.

until then, I need to study like the hell right now! :)

love you.

it makes me feel tired

Studying makes you real tired. But all you do is sit down, take notes, read and do some exercise from the text book or the revision book. You don;t do any physical stuff except writing on papers.

and why are we tired?

I'm not okay.

it's EFF to the YOU to the SEA to the KAY

Ok, first and for most-- I get selected to perform on teachers day :) but the bad news about that is I have to sing with a group! And so, I did. Just to find out, that them form 5 people are really talented and it makes me feel intimidated! VERY intimidated because I can't sing well like they do. So, I asked the teacher if I could sing solo for teachers day. Pn. Salwani said MAYBE but this other thin bitch says NO. I mean, its not FAIR! I auditioned SOLO so I have to perform SOLO. So, Pn. Salwani said that maybe I have to sing SWAY or UMBRELLA for teachers day :/ and that is IF they have time to put me on the show. Don't they know that I am not a one stop center because I am a DESTINATION! If it is a NO then NO if it is a YES then YES! Please be STRAIGHT FORWARD to answer my questions. You know, I really don't mind :)

Second, I'm freaking scared for my mid terms! URGH! Add Maths is real hard. The last time I checked the latih tubi that I did. I got 5% and the worst part is, that is for chapter 2 :/. I have 4 more chapters to go baby! And I'm not that happy :/

Last but not least, I'm doomed :)

until then,

its not alright.

The road ahead is lined with broken dreams

I need to tell the truth, but now I think its too late. You know, I had the chance once but I did not realize it. And now I know that I do, and I wanna make that move-- It's just a little too late. I think I just need to wait. Wow, 3 years have passed by and I thought I'll give up anytime soon. But, I'm still being stupid trying to get ready. Please, don't bother to know what I'm trying to talk about right here, because none of you will understand. It is just between me and god and this blog. But, I'm scared that if I tell the truth, it will be such a waste and I guess I think somehow it'll ruin those hardwork and effort trying to mend those broken pieces. I can't take this! I need to spill it out and let it out of my mind. GOSH!

until then,

wow, mid fucking terms

Dear mid fucking terms, fucketty fuck fuck. Your fucking near. I have to fucking study and it makes me fucking stress. I'm in a fucking mess. I'm fucking scared for my fucking add maths paper. It's fucking fucketty fuck hard. I fucking hope that I will not fucked up and I fucking hope that I will not fucketty fail. Please oh dearest fuckers, if you are good at add maths. Please fucking tutor me.

ciao faktars!

mid terms and holiday plans.

I've planned my holidays and I have made a study timetable for my mid terms--Just for an experiment. Since all the penceramah and the counselor said that'll work. So, let's just hope it will work.


And for the holidays,
There would be tons of parties to attend and a lot of outings with my beloved friends. But, if your lucky you could get a date with me--IF I could fit you into my schedule.

So here's the plan:

May:
4th. Study Add Maths for 2 hours from 5pm-7pm and after that do some Sejarah from 10pm-12am.
5th. After tution, do some accounts from 7pm-10pm
6th. Study Economics from 5pm-9pm since, I don't understand Econs since we changed teacher. After that, do some modern maths from 9pm-12am.
7th. Do some science from 4pm-7pm.
8th. STUDY accounts after Solat Jumaat from 3pm-5pm and from 8pm-10pm do ADD MATHS.
9th. Do some Sejarah for the whole day.
10th. Revise from what I studied.

and if the Mid Terms is not on the 11th, so-- I'll do this all over again for one whole week :) If I could cope the tight schedule without procrastinating and lazying around.

The Holidays:
June:
1st. MAYBE just MAYBE visit Saf in Ipoh :)
2nd. Spade Party-- IDK whether to go or not, it has been a while since I last dance my ASS off :)
4th. Going to Sunway with Anne, as our tradition :)
8th. Going for the BFF shopping day with Siti and Ema in Sungei Wang.
11th. Let's bring Nikki and the rest of the gang to Genting!!
14th. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ANNE :)

p/s-- the one's that I highlighted are the ones that I can't wait to go.

until then,

BFF shopping list,

I'm going on a BFF shopping day with Siti and Ema on the 8th of June somewhere either in Sunway Pyramid or Sungei Wang or Pavilion.

or where do you suggest we go shopping?

Last time I own one of these was a year ago.

Shorts shorts are soo my style, and plus, we live in Malaysia. It's kinda hot here.

I love these

leather pants-- I hope I could find one that does not look gay.

I have not own any tie before, besides my school tie. So, let this be the first.

Oh, and if you are my BFF and I did not invite you to this shopping day-- I'm sorry. Its an one on one shopping day with me and my Siti and Ema. Because, IDK maybe because it has been a LONG time since we hanged out together at shopping malls.

until then,

love you

yes I do.

what's cinta, sayang and suka?

I've been thinking about this lately. What is CINTA, SAYANG and SUKA? It's been haunting me these days. Maybe I'm feeling it right now, with whom? may I not tell you because only a certain people know it and maybe the feeling is wrong. So, don't get too excited.

Anyway, as I was thinking about those things-- I finally figured it out! yeah, I'm such a genius maniac.

ok so here goes.

Suka- Suka means that you like someone or something. It's just when you like it, not love it or sayang it. Suka is very easy for you to feel it and it is also I think is very easy for you to let go. There is so many people and things to like(suka). And there would be so many things or people also to dislike. Suka does not means you sayang or cinta with those people or things. It's just that you are attracted to him/her or whoever it is with their uniqueness and differences.

Sayang- Sayang means you really really LOVE that certain someone or something and its hard for you to develop the feeling and it is also hard for you to let go. Sayang can be categorized in various ways. Whether you sayang her/him as a friend, or as your lover or as a part of your family. And one last thing, jealous does not means sayang. Jealous means that you lack of self esteem.

Cinta- Cinta is Suka and sayang all put together. It's a mixed feeling. Cinta has its measurement. For an example, How far do you love him/her? Will you do anything for him/her? And CINTA is very very hard to feel and very hard to let go as well. If you have not feel the feeling CINTA. Than I hope someday you will.

until then,