6.32am just got back.

a man with low self esteem,

noo. That does not describe me. Anyway, at 1.00am Anne and Nikki said that their car was full and they can't pick me up at home. So, I called Siti and begged her to go out with me since lately she has been very down and sad. Let me cheer her up then. I drove to her house at 12.30am. Everything went so well! I mean, I really can drive now. Except when theres trafic light. But it took me almost an hour to go to Sitis house because the main road to go to her house is closed. So, I have to used another road which was full by police btw. But, I think that they think that I look matured. So they did not ask me to stop the car. I actually had forgotten the way to Sitis house that I went in circles almost 5 times. HAHA. Anyway, about 1.20am I found my way to her house. Passengers who sits with me are cursed. Because, I tend to get so nervous when there is a passenger beside me. But, everything went well except for the trafic lights and the time where I wanted isi minyak.

We went to barra and met Nik Aizu and his gang. Thank you god Nik knows how to drive manual so I ask him about the trafic lights and stuff like that. We waited for Sitis new BF Pa'an to arrive. So this means its like APPROVAL and JUDGING day for Siti. 2 hours later Pa'an came and at first sight, he does not look 2o at ALL! So, I do not want to be someone uninvited to their dating plan. So, I went back home. As I was driving, Siti called me and ask me to hang out with her again. I park my mums car and then Pa'an came and pick me up.

We had no idea where to go..

So, we went to Tasek Shah Alam which was kind of creepy when you go there at 3am. Everything seems like a KAMPONG GHOST STORY, very MISTY and DARK. Then, 2 suspicious men came. So we moved on to MCD section 2 since I wanted to pee. OMG! I met the IK2 Perdagangan teacher. He looked at me like he wanted to eat me. I dont know whats his problem. And then, we drive around town until 4am-- we went to Bukit Section 12 to KONON KONON see the sunrise. It was fun hanging out there because I got to know Pa'an more. He is such a nice guy and very warm and humble. Someone that I want Siti to be with. Someone who can give her freedom and someone who can guide her to the right path :)

The police came at 5.30 and ask Pa'an what we were doing there. He talked with the Police man and the next thing I knew, the police was not there anymore. At 6am, 2 suspicious men came again. So, since there is nothing to do and the sunrise is so lembab today. We went back home.

I got back at 6.30...

Nick: I tak faham kenapa orang boleh sayang another person so hard.
Siti: Huh asal?
Nick: Kalau ada orang sayang I macam so hard, i akan lari kot
Siti: ahaha. Jahaaat.
Pa'an: Maybe orang yang sayang the other person tu memang sayang betul betul.

then silent. He made me think. SHIT!

until then,

love me up!

I love Friday and thank god its Friday!

I just got back from OTWC. Hanging out with Faqiha who just got back from Boarding School. GOSH I miss her much?

We talk and talk. Well, mostly I am the guy who did all the talking. After that, Atiq went to baskin robbins and bought the chocolate maui brownies and then we went to the PADANG belakang concorde and hang there and talk again.

anyway, I need to solat now. tata.

until then,

yeah!

ATTENTION: MUST WATCH THIS VIDEO I MADE!

www.youtube.com/ninick17

listen to all my songs and tell me what you think!

there is something about tonight.

I've been happy for a long time now. What I mean is, I've been too happy. No dramas, No fights, No conflict. NOTHING! This is what I want my whole life. Relaxation. But one thing not accomplish. And this THING is, oh its better left unsaid.

Anyway,
I want you to visit this blog and listen to this girl sings. www.farahasyura.tumblr.com
My friend Farah Asyura, she will go far someday. GOSH! Her voice is like an angel. I la la love it.

Behind all of my happiness, there is this one hole in my heart. I mean, its not sadness but its emptiness. I rather not say it here.

GAHH!

I just want to get over this. OVER everything. I need to keep my distance. Maybe its better ignoring it. I got to see it in another different angle. Like its bad, and it could ruin everything. I need to you know stop holding it on. But gosh! I tried, I fail.

Until then,

I know I should not have kept you waiting,

Yo, readers! I'm sorry if I have not update this blog for almost a week now. This is because I'm out of Ideas of what to post.

I have not been busy doing anything. I'm being much more lazy day by day. But maybe this is just a phase. Oh, and my mum said that I will continue on my tuition even after my finals. This is because of SPM! Hmph.

I just want to break free until this year ends. Then, next year I will be studying my ass off. I swear I will.

Oh, I want to be known as a SOCIAL. You know, like Olivia Palermo. She's a SOCIAL.
haha.

okay I'm crapping.

until then

here I am,

I hope that no one called me yesterday as I was busy mingling. I mean, Thariq was suppose to call me but my battery went out and I went out with my friends to this place called LEPAQ near hartamas. While,they were out at republic. Anyway, I check my call log. No missed calls. So, I feel less guilty.

I am now at home on a saturday night, HOW LAME? I mean, it always ends up like this. My friday nights are awesome but when it comes to the WHOLE day of saturdays-- ITS JUST LAME! From morning till at night. Thinking of sneaking out afterwards. But oh, idk.

OH! Farah Asyura said that I was hot and I am MR. Popular and she said that she really mean it. I was so touched! Well, I like her style! Its so--HIPPIE!

I am using my moms MINI laptop. Gosh! I'm having trouble typing because the keyboard is so small. Anyway, I can't wait to start my online business! Selling retro, vintage and cool stuffs! Its going to be called SIXTIES CIGARETTES and its coming soon this OCTOBER. Don't spend your duit raya at the mall! Spend it in my blog!!

I hope it'll be a success.

I gtg now, before this laptop gets thrown out of the window.

until then,

oh, this thing is normal

Check out the chat box in my friend's blog www.plainwhitebitch.blogspot.com

Someone said I'm "pathetic"

I do not know if this girl/guy knows me or not but whatever. I mean, people being jealous of me is real normal. So I don't really care about it that much. As long as they are talking about me because it is better to be talked about rather than being unnoticed right? Anyway, if you think that I'm being a little snobbish, this is because I'm dedicating this post to that UGLY girl/guy who thinks I'm pathetic.

If you want to be my friend, then be IT! because I'm friendly laa. I don't bite.

You can comment anything you want in my chat box ok UGLY bitch? Maybe if you have BALLS, you can show yourself up. But if you are a girl, then grow some BALLS to face me. I just want to see how you look like. I might just say HI. Don't be scared,

Internet apa barang bodoh?!

white glamorous

I'm not sure how to spell GLAMOROUS. I actually have to sing the fergie song glamorous. damn!

Anyway,

Next month is Ramadhan and then 3rd day of Raya, my brothers engagement. Since I am not going to be his bestmen. He suggested that I'll be his wedding singer. But, whatever! The wedding is like going to be in June 2010. So, theres time to think about what song I'll sing.

I can't wait!

why?

Wow, shocking truth--

I'm not a big fan of your stories :)

1. I don't respect someone who does not respect themselves
2. I may act different in public. But yeah, when its time for privacy between you and I, you're gonna get it!
3. I may not want someone like YOU to TOUCH me.
   
4. YOU disgust me
   
5. This may seem harsh, but between this blog, god and I-- I personally think that your a slut.
6. I don't be friends with TACKY bitches like you.
7. Your so low and stupid. By stupid, I really mean STUPID!
8. I do not know why you are so YUCKISH
9. I don't look at you the same way ANYMORE.
10. This is not the end, but I just disgust you and you lost my respect. I think your stupid
    

The truth hurts right? Well, pay for the consequences bitch! You did not lose me as a friend, you just lost the best part of me being your friend.

until then,

p/s- siapa yang makan cili, cepat cepat lah minum air :)

oh and, I've always thought that you always care about you and your selfish. You made this annoying fucking pity face on that makes me disgust you even more.

DON'T ASK ME WHO, AFTER READING THIS. ITS BETWEEN THIS BLOG, GOD and I

blogging, I miss

The Royals

Its been 2 days since I've been at home. My eldest sister got this major migraine thing and since my mom is worried so she went to my sisters house from thursday until sunday. I went there on saturday untill sunday. GOSH! My nephew Ezekiel a.k.a Mini Me, is so cute. I love him to bits. And I have been co-babysitting him for 2 days. Yes, tiring but it was cool.

Now, I'm at home preparing for school while blogging while watching I'm A Celebrity Get Me Out Of Here. Gosh, I miss my home. Home sweet freaking home! Nothing feels as comfortable. Anyway, my mom is going to the hospital to visit my sister tomorrow morning and I will be home alone until tuesday? Well, me time at last! But there will be no internet access for 2 days. I think its kinda cool because I am recovering from Internet Addiction :)

I gtg now, good-the-bye!

until then,

eyes on fire,

I simply can't wait for Hari Raya because the third day of raya, my beloved brother will get engage and on that night itself we will be having this HUGE family dinner on a cruise and in the morning, we will go to leisure farm which I do not know what to be excited about there since the activities available in Leisure Farm are Horse Riding, Swimming, Golf and some other things which is not that interesting to me. But, I just can't wait for Hari Raya!
Yasmin borrowed my Jodi Picoult book and tomorrow she will lend me her new moon book. Yes, if you are wondering why I'm only starting new moon. This is because, I am not a really big fan of big books. Because big books makes me stick to it like forever, I sometime do not eat or bath just because I want to know what happens next in the next page or chapter. And at the end of the day, I feel iritated with myself.

I can't wait to go shopping for Hari Raya also!! I hope this year's shopping would be like last year, but even MORE fun. I feel like I want to go to sungei wang because I feel that I could get more nice things there which looks kinda expensive but it only cost 40 ringgit or less, But obviously my mom would want to go to mid valley since its like a tradition for me to shop there ever since forever!

Anyway, I just watch twilight AGAIN! haha. Its fun! Don;t blame me. Day by day, I feel like I want to be Edward Cullen. To me, he is so cool. Well, whatever it is Vampires are cool!

I'm typing anything that I feel like I want to type, just to kill time. There are 15 minutes left to download ONE song from the twilight soundtrack. I'm currently listening to Eyes on Fire by Blue Foundation. The song is real nice, its real dark and depress. This is the song in the movie when Bella nearly got hit by the car.

Oh, did I told you that I have encountered with Edward Cullen wannabe Malaysia? No, its not me. But someone else. This happens like in April. There was this guy that THINKS he is Edward Cullen, the way he stare at you is really the same. So, just for fun-- I called him, I shouted "EDWARD!" And he looked at me and come chasing after my friends and I, to everywhere we go. I;ve seen this guy before with Anis. He was behind us on the escalator and he was staring at Anis like Edward Cullen. I have got to admit that he does look 40% like Edward. The way he dresses, is really like Edward. I think he should be around my age or 15.

But his friends looks kind of friendly. I still can remember the way he looked at me, its like he is flirting with his eyes with Nikki and Anis. But when he looked at me, its like he is really going to eat me. Maybe because I called him Edward. Ok, not CALLED but SHOUTED at him. Whatever, its just for fun anyways right.

Siti has been missing for a few days now, I miss her a lot! :/

Do you realize that I'm actually babbling and typing some random stuff here. Thank you god! There is only 10% left to finish the downloading. Anyway,
I hope that I could see that Edward wannabe guy again and ask him on how to be Edward, haha. Really, I think its like so cool to be Edward Cullen. He may not be THE most good looking guy ever but he is just so coool! YEAY! Finish downloading, tata drama.

until then,

oh love,

when the dogs are barking at the new moon, whistling a new tune and hoping it would come soon, So that they could..

Today was normal, I went t0 school and got back. Slept until Asar, eat and now I'm facing my laptop. I'm googling, myspace-ing, facebook-ing and think-ing. When will I be Study-ing?

I know, right.

OMGOMG! Robert Pattinson did not just BITE tyra banks neck! Oh, hell yeah he did! haha. I'm watching it right now. Go, IDOL!

Anyway, I nak mandi now,

until then,

Edward Cullen

Call me by that name now,

Anyway, yesterday I just finished reading My sister's keeper. Because I somehow misplaced the book on saturday. And the MOST shocking ending happen. Yes, she died! I'm not going to tell you who, but she died. I mean, I know that she is going to die somehow, but not that way. I mean, that is so unexpected. I started reading the book at 12am, there were hundred pages left and I;m not exaggerating. I finished reading the book at 2am. And after I knew the ending, I went to my kitchen and had a plain gardenia with no butter or anything and yes, I cried. I just can't help it. I slept at 4am because I really can't get over her death :(

Well, call me drama. But the book really touches you. Its like really emotionally indescribable.

My mum woke me up at 7am, and that was pretty late. I bath and it was really cold since my mum is quitting heater because she said that hot water can make your skin looks old and cold water is healthier. While I shampooed, my brain feels like ice.
I pack my bags for school and left the house at 7.40, I arrived school at 7.45. Had to sit outside the hall since I was late, and I had to watch all the successful students get their button badge and yes, there are so many successful students in my school and I was tired of sitting outside.

I never really liked the assembly, it hurts my ass because we sit on the floor. Sometimes, its so hot and smelly. But most of the times, my ears hurt hearing the teachers babble non stop. Assembly sucks!

Anyway, back from school I slept until 6pm. Bath, tvee, dinner and watch twilight for the 3rd time. :)

until then,

my first time :)

I'm not a big fan of twilight the book. I've read it last year and its ok, its not BAD but just average. Believe me, today is the first day that I watch the whole entire movie. It was pretty good but to me, the movie is kinda slow. Obviously, books are much more better. But yeah, the movie was fun. And I so want to be Edward Cullen, not Robert Pattinson, but Edward Cullen. Bella Swan to me is horny.

Can't wait for new moon :)

And now, I'm listening to Robert Pattinson song--never think.

LAME me. I know,

until then,

Friday night with not that much light,

This kind of troubles are the stories that I will tell my kids

Yesterday I sneak out again. This time with no car and Atiq is following. Anne and boyfriend Danial pick us up at Permata. And then we went to Asia Cafe and hang there for a while with Nikki, Nina, Nikki's "FRIEND" Nik, Nik's friend Amirun and this bald guy which I forgot what his name is. we gossip and laugh until the time on my watch says that it is already 1am. -.-"

Since the snooker place in Asia Cafe was fully booked, we went to Rack instead. I'm glad that we did not go to Asia Cafe because the snooker place there smells like pee. Rack is not better also, but at least it did not smell like cheap beer.

We played snooker and foosball. I was being so gedik on the snooker table and you would not wanna know what I did there. We were at Rack until 3am.

After that, they plan to have a drink. But, instead we went picnic at the Bukit Jelutong taman. It was cold and I was freezing until I needed to pee. I peed behind a tree instead, haha. We had candies and coke that we bought at KK mart and then we just hang around and laughed our ass out until I needed to pee again. But since the mineral water is finished and I have nothing to wash my hands with. So, I hold on to myself.

We went back home at 5am, and Atiq slept over my house.

It was all and all fun!

until then,

breath in, now HOLD!

if you are the air that I breath, tell me why I'm suffocating

Just got back from lighting up with A, I'm the one who lights up not him. I can't wait until its Ramadhan and then its time for shopping. I just clean up my wardrobe and god, I found a lot of cool shirts and T shirts. But yet, I am still itching to go shop for more. I need more short shorts, since its hot here in Malaysia. Oh, and I'm going to start collecting money because I will go to Taiping soon to buy some bags and some vintage clothes and stuff at their market because I want to make an online business. Yeah, thank you very much. My new motto is "Spend Money to Make Money"

To you fashion addicts, check out my soon to come fashion BLOG. Spend your money there and shop till u drop on the net, because its the 21st century now. Who goes to the mall anyways?

My online business blog is coming soon in October, selling vintage and preppy fashion style.

Until then,

La la la la life is wonderful

Oh, I found a new book. Maybe this could be the 3rd best book I have ever read so far. My first would always be Where Rainbows End by Cecilia Ahern, my second would be the Gossip Girl series and maybe my third would be My sisters keeper.

My sisters keeper. The movie will be premiered in Malaysia I think, somewhere in August? Idk, But what I do know is that the book is fun to read and yet it makes me feel sad and I also feel very stressful. I mean, I don't understand WHY does Kate parents have to be soo negative. Since she was 2, they said that she is going to die soon. But hell no she did not! She's living her ass out until 2010. And 2010 have not even arrived yet!

But anyway, I have not yet finished the book. 100 plus pages left.

soo, goodbye

until then

Last Night

Yesterday, I sneak out of the house at 1am and then I drove to section 13 Ali's corner. They say I drive like crazy because I nearly hit everything that is in front of me. Anyway, I hit the pole when I tried to parked. Thank you god theres only a minor scratch behind the left side mirror. And then Amirun helped me to parked the car properly. At 3.00am, we went to Barra and had shisha.

It was ok.

until then,

Its been so long!

Well, just so you know. My drama brother keeps on saying to my mum that his lap top which I always use is not working very well and he blame it on me. So, I did not touch his lap top ever since and my own lap top is going to die soon. So, I don't got no internet connection except at Atiq's house--Using his laptop that is going to die soon too. :(

You know I have this internet addiction problem right? I swear I do. I got nervous just now because it has been almost a week since I blog. I do go online at school for like a few minutes but just to check any mails, picture comments or comments. And now, I'm in my room secretly using my brothers lap top and tak ada apa apa rosak pun. :)

Besides that, I have been well kinda busy lately. The F1 competition is really around the corner. Wait, its not around the corner. It has passed the corner and now its going straight. Thank you god, proposals and sponsorship letters has been sent to various companies via e-mail. Their Coperate Communication personal e-mail :) And 3 of them has emailed me back and they said that they will get back at me as soon as possible. I hope that is a good sign.

The seniors said that it is going to be very stressful for me. But so far, I think I'm doing fine. I do get GUBRA when thnings do not go my way. But I keep telling myself that everything is going to be fine and my team could do their best in this competition. And I hope the other team would too. But the other team and some of my team members are like keeping secrets from eachother and the other team Resource Manager wants to help my team but some of her team members tak bagi. And I want to do the same thing for her, but some of my team members said NO.

So, whtever. I only want to get my work done.

I got to go now. FAST! I hear my moms footsteps and I have a feeling that she is heading to my room right this very moment. Ciao! Kiss kiss hug hug :)

until then,

oh and P/S- Wish me the best of luck.