Time is running out

Just as I was busy fixing things up. And drama's shit here and there,when your BFF makes you go WTF and when your PMR examination is around the corner. I just realize that I had been infront of the computer 24/7 for how many month already! Fuck Shit! I have not studied HARD enough. My world would be ruined if I keep on being this way. Having to learn subjects that I do not like such as sejarah,geography,science and kemahiran hidup makes my confident level goes lower than average. NICK, those subjects you hate are all learning subjects you only have to read. There ain't no formula or whatsoever. So that would only leave me for having 4 A's for my PMR. Suckish.

I have to get 8 A's! Miracles do not happen Nick,
You do not only call upon god and ask him anything you want just like that. You have to work hard and make an effort. Where did the RAJIN Nick went? Who stole him away from me? I have to buck up and live it up. I will have those 8 A's.

My brother said that was impossible because I was collecting D's instead of A's in my mid term.WTF!

But,no one brings me down like that! I am going to study like I have never studied before and I can remember what I have studied. And I will make my family proud! I would make a world history of a boy who studies 3 months away from his PMR and manages to get 8 A's. Please please please do not procrastinate Nick. Just forget about your friends and lets study! Study until you would get number 1 and beat Ryda out! I will do that.

Farewell R, you know I do not go out without a little competition.

are you ON?

Heartbeat

I was lonely only I didn't know it
I was so sad only I didn't show it
You came like the sun breaking through the clouds
And I found you're what I couldn't live without

With you I feel the other half of my heartbeat
I'm complete
In you I hear the other half of my heartbeat
That's all I need
No I didn't know what I was missin'
Oh but baby since we've been kissin'
I can feel the other half of my heartbeat
It's so sweet lying here with you

You look at me and I see my reflection
You understand who I am needs protection
The way you rush to me
The way you take my hand
And I follow you to fall down in the sand


My heartbeats like a drum when I hear you come

You came like the sun breaking through the clouds
And I found you're what I couldn't live without
With you I feel the other half of my heartbeat
I'm complete
And you will heal me up again from my heartbeat
That's all I need
No I didn't know what I was missin'
but baby since we've been kissin'
I can feel the other half of my heartbeat
It's so sweet lying here with you

bye LITTLE C!

Remember my friend C right? Yea I'm sure you do. I'm here to say that she is no longer a character in my life. I think she has just been ditch by me. I do not take wannabe friends like her. Its not that I am being a BITCH or anything like that. It is just that she likes the new HER and I had try my best to tell her that she gotta slow it down a little bit from being wild because I know being the kind of girl is not her. Its like she is a stranger. But she said that people change. And I guess if people change then their friendship changes to.. Right? And I do not even want to see her skin.. Because it would make it easier for me to forget her. I do not wanna have any friendship relationship with C anymore. So,if you are reading this. Bye C. Talk to me when you have change to the original C. But I guess that is impossible.

Untill then "C"

N? heart broken?

When your heart has been broken. It feels like something has kill you inside. Something invisible. Someone you trust the most hurts you. Real bad.

My friend N, likes this guy. She once said to me that there were a lot of things that they have in common. Because N is like this crazy,artistic type of girl. And it is very hard for someone to understand her needs. She see things differently and very artsy.

She said to me before, that the guy that she likes is also kinda very ARTISTIC. So,that is why they have a lot in common. But the guy that she likes seem to gave her hope that they would end up together.

But just this evening.. N got to know that the guy she likes has already has a girlfriend...


heart broken N?

well, he is not the only guy in the world..

until then,

the gay got caught?

It looks like someone has turn you in to the teacher "A". Well.. He is my friend and he is proud that his gay. But hye, Its ok.. It is his choice.. And it is not ATIQ.. His not GAY! Not even ME.. But there is someone in that school who really is.

Well, theres this BITCH in the school who everyone hates. He is FAT,DARK,ANNOYING and a PERVERT SOB. His DAVID JOHN.. Yea, for his sake I don;t mind using his name. Everyone hates him right? Well if you do, you may cmmnt at the pink box. And give me reasons about why you hate him.

I hate him because his obnoxious and smelly.. Plus, he thinks that he is very good at that beat box thing. But, NOT! he is just a wannabe and try to set a trend THAT everyone know its soo last year. FYI, setting trend is about going FORWARD not BACKWARD.

Anyways, to A. You know who you are right? Well, David John just told the teacher that you were gay. yeah. And how would I know? I over heard him talking to the teacher. And one of my friend B told me. But B told me not to tell anybody. But hey, DAVID JOHN deserves it!

until then,

too much too handle C?

Remember the good girl gone bad C? Well after she has became a bad girl, almost all of the guys I know wants to date her and all the girls just gossip about her. Your nothing if your not talk about right C?

Anyways, since she has gone BAD. A lot of guys would dig that kind of things.. As it is right now, there are confirmation of 3 people waiting on the line to be with you. Your so call BEST GUY FRIEND "A" suddenly has fallen for you. Well I know you would think that you guys will not work out with each other right? But, like you said his brother is the one you like.. If i were to be YOU, I would love "A" and at the end of the day.. I would wanna get his brother through A..

Remember "D?" the one you text all day last year? The one you had a crush with LAST YEAR? Well, he just realize that he has fallen for you as well.. hmm? Is it him?

well sorry A and D

her heart is only for "Y" and maybe you would get a chance after Y has broken her heart..

untill then,

optical illusion

You would see that the circles are moving right? But try focusing at just one circle.. You would see that it would suddenly stop.. Scary ain't it?

You'll grow out of it

Dramas,crushes,feeling that you don't belong? Well sometimes I've been through that kind of phase. When I was in form 1 and 2. But as I grew older. I soon know that I was just being a miserable teenager back then. When you feel like you can't trust no one at all..

I was reading my junior's blog. Yeah, they seem to be having a lot of yadi yada drama. Such as "I think that no one understands me" bla bla bla. And "I just saw my crush" bla bla bla.. You know that kind of stuff?

Well, while I was reading. I realize that I have been through all this kind of shit. Hey, it;s normal.. I swear it is.. And I think that there is a stage of phase that you go through. Like a level of a game.

for an example:

when you were in form 1 and 2 you would feel that you do not belong or you would feel that you're left out and that your life is not perfect or you would think that you have not found your friends and your current friends right now would not understand you. right? But I promise you this. By the end of form 2, you will know where you STAND in this world and you will know who the real YOU are. And if the real you is the one who has been LEFT by your friends. Then thats okay, because soon.. You would find a true friend.. Form 1 and 2 is all about DRAMAS i mean EMO DRAMAS..

But when you step into the world of form 3,4 and 5.. I mean by the end of Form 2.. You will find that you would be caught busy in your scandalous life. It is all about Sex,drugs,smoking,parties and alcohol. You do not have to do it if you don;t want to. But you will sure live in a scandalous life. You would see your OBEDIENT friend being WILD at a party.. You would have affairs and stuffs.. You would PARTY like A LOT and You would be also getting caught up in your studies..

FUN AIN'T IT?

Like I said, You will grow OUT of it..

Until then,

different soul

Sometimes you are trying to figure out who's the real YOU are. And while searching, you wear a mask and try to be someone else that you're not. You just want people to not see your flaws. You wish you were perfect. But you are, you just got to search for it within you.

RIGHT "C"?

Where she would sit at the class quietly and be quiet for the rest of the day thinking about her crushes and humming the MCR song.

But, just as we were in form 3. There was a new C. The one who curse alot,tried smoking and a little bit dirty. Where did the good girl went?

It was just yesterday she was cutting school going to sunway pyramid. Maybe the good girl she portrait before was the one she wears a mask. Well being bad feels good right "C"?

Whether you're good or bad. You know that I will always be on your back babe.

until then,

secretly in love

I think I am in love,
I never get this DEEP feeling before. I am so in LOVE with you. But I know that you will never fall for me. Because I know that we were never meant to be together. And this is MY secret. Not even ATIQ knows who she is. So,no need to be sensitive because I did not tell you who she is. Because only god and I know who the person is. shh..

It could be someone in your class. Maybe she's reading this right now. So to "YOU" I just want to say that NO matter what choices you make. I would always be there and support you. FUCK! I am so in love with you bitch! I hate it!! damn it!! I do not get DEEP feelings often. But I know myself. And I know that I would get over you.. SOMEHOW..And sometimes I think its forbidden to fall in love with the person you never thought you would fell in love with. Maybe I should get caught. But if I tell you that I LOVE you. Maybe I would have a chance to lose you. And I am not willing to let that happen.

mysterious lies

Everyone is being mysterious now days. And I feel that they are telling lies. PEOPLE! stop living in Pinocchio land. Eventually, I would know what is going on between you guys. So, do not play games with me. You know that I would win.

What do you guys talk behind my back?

its not that I need to know. But I know you are keeping mysterious lies now days. Do you hate me? Did someone die? Well,
Being mysterious with me is not gonna make things better. I know the look in your eyes when you are about to tell me something but I you are just trying to wait for me to ask.

But what am I to ask?

a key,

The key,
It is use to open something. Something that you love,adore and heart the most. You would keep it save into a box or your house. But eventually, someone would open the box. Sometimes someone you least expected to open the box. And when that certain someone stole the key to the box. That particular some one would be surprise what kind of skeletons and treasure would be in it.

stay in touch,

untill then..