open day


Open day,
It is the day when our parents have a little meeting with the teacher. This is when the teacher show us our mid term results to our parents. Apparently, my mid term this year is the WORST results of my 9 years of schooling.

I never fail to get at least 3 A's for my results. But today, the scent of an A is just not there. My mum was shock. I think that sh had a slight panic attack. Her face turns red hot and she said "this is the worst results that I will ever get from you.I am soo dissapointed." The word DISSAPOINTED seems soo long for her to say it.

And the week will not be getting better. My mom is going to tell my siblings!! WAH!! THis is a MAJOR fall for me. It leaves with a splinter,a wound and a scab. It is like you have fallen from your bike and sometimes you just want to get up and play again. But there is some one inside your heart will keep whispering that you got to stay home and rest and DO NOT EVER RIDE THE BIKE again.

So, Nick! please please please STUDY STUDY STUDY!! That is all I have to do. But why does it seems so HARD? I have lost my COURAGE to make everyone proud! Why nick?!! PMR is 3 month away.. So just wake your self up! and study!!

what I wanna be?

I have come to this point of my life where people kept asking me what I want to do after high school. Next year, I will be in form 4. What class should I take? What options do I have when I take that particular class? This are the questions that are going around in my mind these days. URGH I did not know that choosing your career will make you feel so useless and unmotivated.. damn!

PMR is coming in 3 months from now! I am still procrastinating like shit!! urgh fuck me!! I hate my self because I procrastinate. My mid term results was not good. I did not do my freakin best.. I will study from now!! please GOD!! gimme hope.. I do not only call upon you when I need you I am going to start praying to you now everyday all day..

Back to my"what I wanna be" topic. I know this sounds so cliche, but I love ARTS.. I love to design and stuffs.. But the thing about that is.. I cant even draw a perfect LINE without using a ruler and I cant even draw a 360 circle without using a compass.. I have this ideas in my head.. But I do not know how to express it on a piece of paper..

shitty ain't it?

I love to organize stuffs. Like parties,tea parties and what not. I am currently working on doing a masquerade party with my friend Nabilah Radzi.. yeap! We planned it big.. I am kinda good at it actually but being an event organizer is soo EVERYONE these days.. And I can't be as RICH as I want to be if I be an event organizer..

Fashion is also something that I like. But, the thing about that is.. I am afraid to learn fashion because there are so many gays in the industry. And I am a guy who is STRAIGHT from head to toe.. I'm HOMOPHOBIC..

Music is my hobby and I love music as much as I love myself. I have alot of genres of music in my iPOD and I love every single one of them. I have compose a lot of songs with the guitar and stuffs.. But to me, being a STAR is not my thing. I do not go for popularity.. Plus my mom would not let me be a ROCKSTAR.. -.-"

A photographer? yeah. Thinking about that actually.. But, it is not a serious JOB.. You have to be very very good at it to be rich doing it..

aaahh!!!!!! My other options is being an art director,creative director,graphic designer,interior designer,advertising designer and a businessman..

ouh! When I get my 8 A's for my PMR, I think that I would be in the 4IK1 class these are the subjects that I would be taking next year:

1. ADD MATH
2. ECONOMICS
3. ACCOUNTS
4. ARTS(extra)

yeap! So, I hope that I know what I wanna be ASAP!

untill then,

yours truly,
Nick Raja Adam



missing the dad.


Fathers day is almost here.. I do not share this with my friends because they would give me this sympathetic look that I hate and they would not understand how I feel. And I do not expect them to understand.

I was at the mamak stall with my mom and all we could think about is my dad. I remember every kisses from him,every bed time story,every teaching and every love that I felt from him. Forgetting about him is like the last thing on my mind right now.

He is the best daddy in the whole wide world! No one can beat his JOKES,COOLESSNESS and UNIQUENESS. My dad is one of a kind. Not like yours. The bored dad. hahaha..

Although I know that he is in a better place now. But sometimes I do wait for him to come in to my dreams and tuck me into bed like he used to.

The moment that I knew I lost my dad was at his grave yard. When my family and I were the last one to leave the grave. At that particular second, when I know that he is 6 feet under and that I will never see him again the tears just came out like it was from the heart and my mind just kept saying "OMG nick! You do not have a dad no more. It is not a dream. your hero just passed away."

Sometimes, I do feel that this was all just a dream. I swear! Sometimes I just can't believe it that his gone forever! And when I wake up I would still be in JB being 10 again. But I do not wanna turn back time and go through all that again.. To me it is just a waste of time.. Just a scary phase that I go through..

I am not sad actually right now. Not even happy. But I just miss having a DAD. The 11 years of my life with him are all the special ones. And I hope that ALLAH put him in a better place like no other!

AL-FATIHAH.

oops! they didn't!


First kiss.. It is the moment that felt so magical.. The moment that you felt save and you can feel the fireworks between the both of you..

anyways,

Yesterday S and N invited me to follow them to the mall to accompany S to see her BF. But apparently, I was broke.. Yeah.. Hardcore broke.. So, I miss my chance to see S's boyfriend and get the scoop about their dating story..Because their dating story has always been so HOT and DRAMATIC! And it always makes me laugh.

Luckily for me! I have lots of contact to get the news.. The main one should be N because she is some what like me.. The one you call "penyibuk"

So, after I woke up this morning. I went to my house phone and call N. So, I ask N. "so how was yesterday? was it good or bad or sexy or what?"
and she said "S's BF brought his sister that looks like MASDAYANA!" and I was like "beside that?" and N told me the real story

Apparently, S and BF was at this bookstore with N. But,they left N at the novel section and they went to the quiet section. They took a book and hide behind the book and MAKE OUT! yeap.. It is her first kiss.. She is officially half a virgin.. hahahaha...

when N told me that story.. I was kinda in a SHOCK! because.. S has always been a good girl and she is not what you call SLUTTY at school..

And then I call S and i ask her how was yesterday..(acting like i do not know anything).. Some how, they left N at mph and went to the stairs and MAKE OUT at the stairs.. hahaha... MAT REMPIT much? oops..

And suddenly the security guard caught them! I was like... What were they thinking? Doesn't she knows that they have hidden camera somewhere? And they RAN without saying a word to the guard..

Be careful S.. You know there is always a hidden camera somewhere...

untill then,

yours truly..
Nick Raja Adam